a synapse away.

new blog

2009-06-10T23:29:00.001+08:00

This is the last post for this blog.

My new blog >> http://aeonex.wordpress.com

movie outing

2009-06-03T21:25:00.003+08:00

This friday(5th june), there will be a movie outing. 2 movie selections under consideration - Terminator:Salvation and Monsters Vs Aliens. Cathay Cineplex @ CWP.

Ticket prices @ $8.50.

If the majority votes for Terminator: Salvation, we'll watch it at 4.15pm slot.
Alternatively, Monsters Vs Aliens at 3.25pm slot.

Now i just need your smses to confirm with me.

W64N Outing

2009-05-26T15:52:00.012+08:00

UPDATE: The decision still stands. If we have an outing @ E-hub, it will be costly considering we're paying for the activities(bowling,pool etc.) It will be much more cheaper if we were to go to Sentosa.

Plan phase: Outing@Sentosa

As the holidays are approaching, it is crucial for us to get together and have a good time. ;)
Let's get down to business.

Most of our classmates have expressed their interest to have an outing at Sentosa.

So, here's the breakdown.

Day/Date : Monday (1st June 09)

Time : 11a.m - 5 p.m

Meeting area: Vivocity's skytrain station@11a.m

Items to bring:

Mats (bring them if you have)
Volleyball(1 volunteer to bring it)
Soccerball(1 volunteer to bring it)
Frisbee(1 volunteer to bring it)
Extra clothing
Towels
Money(minimum of $20) - dinner@vivo.
Camera(a high quality DLSR would be nice)
Anything else deemed necessary.
Food(Light snacks e.g. sandwiches & chips)
Bottled drinks

Activities:

Beach soccer,
Beach volleyball,
Swimming,
Frisbee,
Bonding session

Side notes: We're gonna have a dinner after the outing too(for those who have don't have a curfew or anything, we can have a chit chat session under the stars after dinner).

Express your thoughts about the plan on the tagboard. I'll be flexible to change the day/date of the event.Also, please confirm your attendance by this thursday(28th May).

If more than half of the class can't make it on that day, i'll change the day of the event. This is a class outing. Make yourselves available. :)

Those who have the equipments, tell me that you're bringing it on the day.

P.S who wanna watch terminator on thursday with me after school??? haha

Birthday Bash Info

2008-12-08T10:36:00.004+08:00

[UPDATE]
The finalized venue for the birthday bash is still Sentosa.
MONDAY [15 DEC 2008]
1PM - 6PM
Attendees are expected to arrive @ Vivocity around 12.30PM. Once maximum strength is fulfilled, either call me or Haziq.

Alright kids, anuar here.

This post is intended to answer your doubts and queries about the 2008 birthday bash.

Listen up here.

Where is it going to be held?
Sentosa's Palawan Beach.

Who's involved?
Facilitators : Anuar + Haziq + Fiza
Attendees : 6somes, Ellysa, Atiqah, Patricia, Shu Hua, Quraisya

When is it going to be held?
DAY/DATE - still under planning. most probably on the 15th dec/monday. 2 days after zoukout.
TIME - 1p.m to 6p.m

What is it about?
Duh. Its a birthday bash. A whole line-up of activities await.
Planned by your two birthday planners - anuar and haziq + fiza

What to bring?

Appropriate beachwear. No scantily-dressed individuals
Sunblock
Towels
Extra clothes
Slippers/Sandals
Mats(BRING! if you have any)
Balls(Beach ball preffered)
Minimum amount of $10 to be brought(includes transportation costs - $3)
Umbrella (the weather's weird nowadays)
Anything else you deem necesssary

Things to note:

$4 for Birthday Cake; Light Snacks; Bday Bash 08 Souvenirs
Attendees to send pictures of yourself(any 5) to willis413@hotmail.com by this thursday.
Attendees to bring minimum 3 Birthday presents

How?
To get there : Bus 188 from CCK interchange OR Alight at Harbourfront MRT

Attention : I need all of you to gather at VIVOCITY's terminal connecting to Sentosa at around 12.30 on the day itself. Haziq and me will prepare everything first before all of you can come down.

That's all.

Ingorant no more

2008-10-09T18:27:00.003+08:00

Here, i'll intoduce my favourite parable. Created by the famous philosopher from ancient Greece, PLATO.

Plato's Cave

Basically, the story goes like this.

In a cave.
A group of men(prisoners) were chained up and they were unable to turn their heads.
Another group of men(puppeteers) were behind the group of prisoners. They casted shadows on the wall where the prisoners are looking at. Mind you, the prisoners have been looking at the shadows throughout their lifetime.
The prisoners mistook the shadows as reality.
One day, a prisoner was released from the cave and saw the real world.
However, he came back to the cave after learning the truth of the real world.
He was scared shitless.
But why did he came back?

There's really no answer why. However, what we want to know is what is the intention of Plato coming up with the parable.

The story tells of Plato's perspective of the world of the forms and the artificial world we live in. The world we live in, for Plato, is artificial and not real. It is there to only distract us from the truth of the world of the forms. The world of the forms is an actual place where exists perfection of all the things on this earth. Therefore, for example, a tree on this earth is only an imperfect copy of the perfect tree in the world of the forms. The aspiration therefore, for Plato, is for us to understand this and to devote our lives to the attainment of the perfect knowledge. The people in the cave are in the dark and never get to see the truth outside. They are like this so long that when one leaves, he is overwhelmed by the beauty and light of the outside and runs away from this truth. It is a moral story telling us that we must be brave and not afraid of the truth, abandon the shackes of our pitiful life and we must seek the light and beauty of the outside world. Mind you again, this is not some kind of religous preach. It's a parable. A philosopher's point of view.

Initially, I see no relation of the parable to my learning. As I realized the true intention and underlying meaning of the parable, I quickly linked it to the MATRIX (movie). Personally, I think the MATRIX was inspired by Plato’s cave. That’s not what’s so exciting about the parable. What’s exciting was the realization of true knowledge or truth based on the parable. I’m amazed by the Greek philosopher, Plato. His logical philosophy or rather, Parable, can still be used today. In this case – education. The education system plays a significant role based on the parable. Since young, we’ve been spoon-fed with knowledge without us knowing whether it’s true knowledge/truth. This is similar to Plato’s cave, whereby the prisoners are taught by using shadows. We are “subjects” in a controlled education system. Similar to the Plato’s cave, an artificial world (created to deceive the prisoners what is actually the truth). We ought to free ourselves from the shackles of controlled education and seek the light of truth. Unfortunately, in this fast-paced and dog-eat-dog world, we have no choice but to undergo what has been depicted in Plato’s parable. However, with this Parable, (which is a life lesson for me) strengthens the fact that I should view the world in a different perspective.

I just love philosophy. Dont ya?

The thin line

2008-09-01T22:16:00.006+08:00

Will technology ever replace mankind in the future? My take on A.I

Friend or Foe?

- Weapon technology, to be exact.

From the traditional bow and arrow to the AIM-9 sidewinder missle, nothing much have changed. They carry out the same deadly purpose; to kill. The difference that set these two weapons is a sea apart.
Well, what's the difference?
Here's what it is, the probability of getting a confirmed kill. Imagine the agony and frustration of wasting your resources, ammunition, time and a whole lot of money knowing the fact that your enemy is still alive.
Let's go through a breakdown of how someone can miss an objective without the help of advanced weapon technology
-Stress; you're going to eliminate somebody you don't know
-Fatigue;you got to use your energy to perform your objectives
-Injury;you are hit, can you continue your objective?
-Indecisiveness;time is important if you want to get to your enemies. they don't stay there forever.

That pretty much sums up to a failed objective at the end of the day. Your C.O won't be happy about this.

Along came there rise of machines - you name it. Global positioning system, advanced topography system, auto-piloting system, infrared detection system and the list goes on. These crucial advancements are key to performing and arriving to a successful objective. In case you're wondering, i decided to write this after watching Stealth. A film about a pseudo take on A.I(Artificial Intelligence) inplemented in a weapon, namely the fighter plane. A.I helps to increase chances of meeting your objectives. They are ordered to perform a specific task. Well, in this case, to kill.

Will they take other factors into consideration when performing their objective?
Unless they can feel and judge a battle situation, there's no way civilians will be left unharmed.

Imagine this scenario. in the process of meeting their objectives, their bogeys(enemy) take in hostages and the A.I won't hesitate to shoot down their enemy. What'll happen? You decide the aftermath for yourself.

The pilot seat is built for men. Not A.I. At least we have the capability to judge and think morally on how to interpret battle situations.

my legacy

2008-07-29T20:21:00.001+08:00

I leave behind nothing but the image I’ve left behind.

This legacy would be something intangible and carries a deep meaning to it. If there’s a will and surely there’s a way. I want to be remembered as a person who goes beyond his will and capabilities. I want to be a symbol .Why? The world needs someone or something to shake them out of apathy, greed, corruption and power. In reality, I can't do that as Anuar, as a man, I'm flesh and blood and I can be ignored. However, as a symbol I can be incorruptible, I can be everlasting. I can be immortal. With it in place, that symbol will encompass hope, courage, honour and justice.

As a person, I’m the same as everyone else

As an individual, I’m a different person abiding to his own beliefs and principles.

As a person named Anuar, I put my beliefs and principles to the test.

But as a symbol, ……………

So what am I?
I’m an enigma. Time is the deciding factor. When the time is ripe, things will change.

a poem for her

2008-07-13T17:36:00.001+08:00

I thought of getting you a DOMO
But, you are already a monster (just like me)

I thought of getting you a teddy bear
But, you have me to cuddle with

I thought of getting you a diary
But, you can remember things easily (Well, rather than the fact you have STM)

I thought of getting you a ring
But, we’re just friends

I thought of getting you a scary movie
But, you are not afraid of any scary movies at all (BOO!)

I thought of getting you a book
But, I know you don’t like to read

I thought of getting you a birthday cake
But, I know I will smear cream on your face

I thought of thinking of a million more things
But, they don’t pretty much say how I care for you

Then I had a great idea
And thought that it was brilliant
A simple tag with your nickname is the perfect gift for you.

For you Mini,
By Mega.

a poem for her

2008-07-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

missing her

2008-06-08T20:51:00.004+08:00

Missing her
PROLOGUE

Time and time again I hoped to see her. That day was no different. A sunken feeling of dread and loss culminates from an undying flicker of hope I had for her.

I shuddered upon entering the mall . The blast of cold air knocked me out of my socks. The atrium was filled with sales of bedsheets and pillows. Three guys clad in black were enticing the crowd to buy the products on display. One of the three guys, dark-skinned, clean shaven and as thin as a stick was slacking and talking to a lady dressed scantily. He had his eyes glued to the other "eyes" of the lady

“Nothing better to do i reckon “ I cursed him in my thoughts.

I darted towards KFC, ignoring the special bargain that was going on.

The seat was empty, only to be replaced by a ghost of a whisper calling out her name. As it has always been, the seat was quickly taken up by a man driven by hunger. He munched his zinger burger like there’s no tomorrow. Disappointed, I left the place as quickly as I got there in the first place.

A congregation of shoppers stormed towards the apparel store. It stopped me dead in my tracks. Curious, I scanned the area to see what’s the commotion was about. A giant banner; streaks of red lines crossing out an enlarged dollar sign was engulfed by the crowd.

I stopped and stare.

What makes people happy, really? Is it the pursuit for materialism or truly understanding what money does for you? Whatever the answer is, I don’t care. I have it all. What i defined all is money, no lesser than that. But, I feel something is amiss, whether it’s tangible or not, I’m unsure. One thing’s for sure, I definitely miss her.

Hey you! A familiar voice threw me back to reality.

Footer:
the prologue for my new story. ^^

photo art

2008-06-02T11:20:00.007+08:00

let pictures do all the talking. first section are glimpses of my class - W47G. i don't know what i'll do without you guys! second section are photos that i took at home. for the record, i like to take photos of still objects. i'll update my blog using my reflection journal in the coming days. you'll know why i've not been updating my blog all this while.

W47G! (PAGER STONE!)

Still objects

that's all folks!

entitled title

2008-05-19T19:58:00.004+08:00

[insert name here] i can't forget about you.

now, i've to say this
the time i first laid my eyes on you,
was the moment i found my way.
i remembered the time you were crying silently,
truth is, i didnt know you were

now calm down,
those tears you've shed
the words they've said
did'nt make you frown

now i confess,
you are my dream girl
seriously, you make me twirl
now, let's cut to the chase

now, listen to my heart
close your eyes.
the moment your lips don't move, i know that it's true.
your heart skip a beat, saying you love me

i cant forget about you

- aeonex
sorry, even though i 'm single. i'll still wait for her.

back [FROM] time

2008-04-20T15:36:00.007+08:00

i'm back. back [FROM] time. the blog stood to test the flow of time.

as you might have noticed, my cryogenically frozen blog ceased to exist over the long period of slumber. now, its time. good news first, time started ticking back for this "dusty" (as you guys might call it) blog. let's give an update of how things are shaping up for me.

another good news. things are slowly falling into place. everything is picking up slowly as it should have been. (the future is not written in stone) i have altered the course of my destiny. ok. let's cut to the chase and let's land back on earth.

a new school, a new environment, a new mindset and new friends. importantly, a new lease of life. for those who are not sure where i am now at, i'm currently in republic polytechnic. actually republic polytechnic is not bad as it seems. first and foremost, you dont have your usual lectures where most of the students will quickly bore to death.

instead, RP has a unique learning system. let me briefly tell you how it works. you and your team will be given a topic, say science - cryogenics. yes, you have no idea what it is. that's the main challenge, you have to do some research with your team mates and come up with an in-depth study of that topic. at the end of the day, you and your team mates will present the class of the topic and teach. we have to be precise and specific when it comes to teaching them. presentations are done various ways, powerpoint slides, skits, videos, games or anything under the sun. in a way, creativity is a plus point.

another good news is...
i've been getting A's and B's for the past two weeks! to add on, the A's outweigh the B's. :P every individual is graded by a teacher(facilitator) we are judged by our communication, logical, reasoning, and analytical skills. so, the word of the day is, we need to think and speak our mind. a word of advice for RP students, think before you speak. :)

the bad news is...
no matter how well everything is falling into place, i feel that something is missing. something that makes me happy. something? no not something. it's someone. someone who will make my whole world stop. someone who will be my only one. i just need her and nothing else.

Her. ( where are you?)

back to square one

2008-02-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

look at the bottom right corner of your desktop. what does it show? mine shows 4.10P.M. well, that's because it's time i decided to post something new. no matter what time you read this post, be it in the evening or in the wee hours of the morning, oh, or try this, a thousand years into the future? not a problem, you'll still have the opportunity to read it. because in true fact, it is already inscribed on the fabric of time. for the thousand years part, i guess you need to find the elixir of life to be able to do that. or maybe a time machine?

time.
it is the greatest concept to be ever conceived by mankind. or rather, it
is destined for us.

no one can deny this fact. time helps us in many ways in our daily lives. well, for starters, we have the young ones. some kids discover the true essence of time when they start to pick up the newspaper. for what? they browse through the pages and set their sights on the TV schedule of course! so that they can prepare themselves keep themselves free during that slot of time.

oh and for the late bloomers, who did'nt even care about how important time was. they will eventually realise this when they are out on a date (o.O lovey-dovey chuggey loooolyy. uhh. stop?) surely , no one wants to be late for a date right?

time is never-ending. it is infinite. nothing can stop it.
the arrow of time will continue to sear through. and along with it, humankind has all the time in the world to pen down its history in the books. i tell you this. not all pens have infinite ink, it will run out of ink somehow.

so what are we going to do in the meantime?
now here's my take. humankind will never cease to stop searching for knowledge. to answer all the questions we hold dear till the point we push the boundaries. let's see. here's one, einstein dscovered atomic transition probablities, radiation simulated emissions(check out @wikipedia to know more), although the findings might be revolutionary, it has opened pandora's box. not long after that, those findings are exploited and the atomic bomb was invented. not by einstien, but individuals who see this fit to end world war 2. and how did they end it? by wiping out more human beings.

of course, technology will improve over time. look at how the obselete playstation one which yields only 360,000 flat-shaded polygons per second to the future of the gaming, the playstation 3, that boasts a whopping 450 million polygons per second. this is one of the examples to proof that we have a thirst for better entertainment. but for what price. of course these lean mean machines show quantam leaps in technology, but it means it need more power, it drains more electricity, thus accelerating the need to produce more electricity, more fossil fuels used leads to depletion of oil. and we cannot escape from global warming from that.

the earth is ailing, we have been ambassadors of this planet since prehistoric times. or are we leeches, sucking the resources on this planet not knowing when it will run out. we are living on borrowed time. in time, we will disappear from the face of this planet. i don't know when and i don't know how. because i'm not a time-traveller whatsoever.

who knows, technology will be left behind on this planet?
achievements that man have once sought after will serve as a token of gratitude to the never-ending quest to achieve utopia. although, there may be a chance for us to experience utopia, chances are slim. we'll never know when we'll mess up again. but one thing for sure, time will never stop.

we all have our time machines, don't we?
those that take us back, are memories.
and those that carry us forward, are dreams

fly?

2008-02-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

aeonex

"oh dang. i can't fly.
my OMG!)@*%!@&%!) moment. smile for the camera! hmm. i wonder. who took this picture of me?

*ting ting ting*

*commentator speaks* -"on one side of the ring, we have aeonex, the no muscles, no nonsense, no powers, no shiny armor. only him and his joker-ish smile. i know who'll win.

on the other side, the big guy iron man clad in red/orange armor. looks like he's gonna pawn! aeonex hands down.

iron man

oh, but he can!"

uncanny resemblance eh? was browsing through KOTAKU's website. i stumbled upon this familiar picture. reminds of me when i was in my OMG!)@*%!@&%!) moment on the way back home from school.

let's cha-cha?

final verdict* - you guess. give me your answer. intelligent answers please. let's see how creative you guys can get. post your answers on the TAGBOARD. winners like always, will be featured! for the poem title contest, its getting more and more intense. looks like i'm favouring angelove's answer! but let's see who can outdo her!! stay tuned!

the pretender

2008-02-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

hmm. what's with the teens obsession to social networking sites. well, to name a
few, you got the ever-popular friendster. to say it short, it's
a social hub. it's somewhat a pseudo sub-culture(all mashed up into one big
gigantic bolus) that bind teens of all ages, especially asian teens. typically,
singaporean teens. it's a good way to make friends. uhh what did i say, friends?
what's with having 300 -1000 friends on your friends list without knowing 50% of
them? contrary to popular belief , friendster is leaning towards more of a
matchmaking site rather than social networking site. i'm being sarcastic here,
we got the usual handsome/pretty primary display pictures to entice visitors to
your personal page. i know this because i'm guilty of my own words. hoping to
get something in return? you bet it!

personally for me , i want to be heard.

with a teeny tiny bit of reason to get a special someone from the net. well, i have to be diversed. i mean , you gotta be open to seize opportunities that's waiting for you. and yeah, it sounds exciting to meet your destined as far away as germany is it? it doesnt hurt to spread your eggs in different baskets right?

being puny and so underappreciated is everyone's greatest fear. we fight so hard to hide our fear till the point we're scaring ourselves. till the point we don't even know who we are anymore. we desperately scatter around to search any means necessary to change ourselves, to be heard and to be appreciated. and so this is the part where the net plays a big part.

truth is, the net is a great medium to voice our opinions out and get the whole world to share and listen to your joys and woes. and also, you have the option to be someone whom you are not. this is where abuse comes in. this is where layers of masks are covering the hidden devil inside a person. because why not? no one in the world knows who you really are in the net. you can pose as Maria Sharapova, Bill Kaulitz, Dave Grahl or be anyone that you want to be. because the net is a different reality, an escape from real life that they hate so much, people will seek refuge in the cyber world. in short, their true identities will be blurred.

say for example, we got the cute XMM(xiao mei mei) writing this on her friendster profile. this is an example only. im not quoting this from anyone's friendster profile. ok, here's one example.

"Moi ish very cute cute der. Moi ish an angel to my friends."
literal translation - i am very cute. i am an angel to my friends. sounds
intriguing huh? but in reality, it's a lie. a beautiful one.

and so here i am. exposing myself to the net. i know some of you weave beautiful, intricate cheesy stories but sadly it is just a facade. all in the benefit to gain sympathy, popularity and for some evil doers out there....money. and so did i made my point? i don't even know. earlier on, i said i wanted to be heard. now, listen good. three words for anyone reading my blog. especially, the "pretenders". just be yourself.

this post is inspired by both SHUMIN on her post about originality as well as FOO FIGHTERS's - THE PRETENDER. that is why this post is entitled the pretender.

need i say more? gotta love dave's feisty angst.

you want to be different huh?
trying to let go of the truth?
don't bother
it's just a beautiful lie.
ask yourself.
who are you?

i know. i'm controversial

a transient fantasy

2008-01-31T21:48:00.001+08:00

i love you,

emotionally,

unconditionally,

eternally,

painfully,

probably the words the heart might understand it fully.

truly,

can't you see i'm standing right here,

right in front of you, dear.

i'm calling you, whispering to your ear

don't go now, is that what you fear?

we were so close, but our folks chose to seperate us.

is that what of bloodlines, heritage and culture that matters?

our hearts draw near,

till the point it merges.

that imaginary line drawn by our ancestors,

it's just a line, a boundary, an obstacle, an obstructor.

we are halves,

torn from a whole.

thrown in opposite directions

as the saying goes,

till ends meet.

promise me,

even if the odds are against us,

you and me,

are going to be together.

as it should be.

as it was supposed to be.

as it was meant to be.

it's our destiny.

here you go. another one of my mushy poems. i have yet to title the poem. but i ran out of ideas to give it a title. so why not you guys give a title for my poem? consider this a competition. SEND YOUR ENTRIES/TITLE FOR THIS POEM ON THE TAGBOARD. i'll personally pick the best title suited for this poem. and of course, that lucky person does not walk away just like that. he/she will be featured and credited. and maybe more? go for it!

standpoint

2008-01-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

ok. so i wasted about 30 minutes thinking about what to blog. it's so hard when you really don't have anything to blog about until....

wait for it.

so i practised various ways to have my eureka! moment.
i tried sitting under the apple tree. - just like newton.
i tried bathing in a tub with my rubber duckie. - just like archimedes
i tried looking outside my window. - just like .... uhh, anyone made it famous just by looking outside the window??

ok. so i didnt really do any of the above. i banged real hard on my keyboard, till the point the keys flicked out of the board, leaving it naked. o.O me got meself a sexy keyboard! Phweet!
sheesh, if you believe that, you are truly a gullible person. who would be crazy enough to tamper their keyboards and hurt their own hands? especially when you need it to type this nonsense i've been writing for the past 5 minutes?

stop the chatter. we're seriously going in hard right now. on with the formalities. here's what striked my mind - success

everyone can soar. how you did it depends solely on you. whether you are tied to an airplane which is probably searing the skies at mach 4, you spread your arms, nonchalantly enjoying the breeze on your cheeks but disappointingly, you feel no sense of achievement whatsoever. then there's this, you are feverishly sweating in the skies, bruised and tired from the hundred of tries to get airborned but you'll receive something that is indescribable, that is satisfaction.

there's various ways to be successful. you can start out real fast or you can take your time dead slow. but the end result is almost the same. now notice that i did say almost. i won't go into the technicalities and waste another 10 minutes typing what it is really about, because i hoped you got the picture after reading the previous paragraph.

let us dwell deeper into the rabbit's hole and find out what's the blood, sweat and tears to success. here's my take, the seeds sown in the humble beginnings need to be tended, watered and given sunshine aplenty. given time, it will surely grow into something big aite. notice that time is taken into account, because this is a big factor determining the real success you'll get later. of course there are the occasional monsoons and pesky little pests getting on your nerves. counter all of that, and you'll eventually manage to ward off the abovementioned. work your way again to tender the seed you once sown. it needs concern and priority to keep it alive and kicking. or it will be dead. it depends on you, the seed is your hope. ok.lah. i think im getting a little serious here, ok. just imagine its jack and the beanstalk. for those young girls and boys reading my blog. hey! my blog is age-friendly. anyone can read! zzz...

so....
i dont know what else to write about. SHUMIN!! i need inspirations from you. i envy your long posts! well, i have long posts too. just that my life is kinda boring right now, working 8-12 hours a day, attending to potential buyers of bedsheets and pillows.
i just watch the world go by.....

results

2008-01-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

there's a massive surge in blog hits today. yup. i got that from nuffnang analytics. i guess they wanted to know about my results. hoho. i know what you pesky little guys are up too. ok, to end the constant "eh! how'd you fare for your O's" on MSN and messages on my handphone. here's a one big loud message to you guys out there.

i got 15points for my L1R4. aiming to go to poly. nuff said.

duality

2008-01-18T12:02:00.000+08:00

to commemorate the 2nd year running of this blog. i'd like to present a token of gratitude to this humble blogspace.

let's cut to the chase. this blog has spawned numerous stories and poems throughout my life and i'm thankful that blogger.com is an awesome medium for me to pen down the thoughts that had once been cooped up only in my mind. and not forgetting my frequent blog readers. without you guys, this blog would'nt have been nothing. thank you 10000+ netizens!

i know it's kinda pixelated. that's because i shrank it to size. you can view the whole picture. link here. http://i68.photobucket.com/albums/i24/aeonexdeunamist/aeonexgundam3.jpg

a token of gratitude. fyi, this is my HP wallpaper too!! =p

six feet underground

2008-01-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

it's an emotion never to be messed upon. hell knows no fury when even the seed of anger is put into motion. it grows at an exponential rate, engulfing your inner conscience, throwing you into a state of confusion, coupled with a dread feeling of hate and despair. it can even turn an angel into a devil-pun intended. it's human nature at its worst. anger.

no one in this world will leave as a full-fledged angel. anger is embedded into all of us. you can't run away from it. face it. its in your deoxyribonucleic acid. if it run in us, it runs in the society, if it runs in the society, in runs in the world. its everywhere, waiting for the right time to strike and swallow a person whole.

even the littlest, microscopic, nano-squabble can shake the whole world. as like i have said before, it can grow into something humongous. even a simple misunderstanding can turn out into a monster that can affect the lives of others, not just between both parties but his/her circle of friends, society or the worst of all, the world too.

anger is just an expression to voice out that tiny little voice in your head who had been tampered, bruised, damaged or to the point of disintegration by external events or namely a person. we are living in an era whereby you can see bloodshed, backstabbing, and powerplay. man, why did i say that? we are constantly living in that era. ever since the beginning of time, when man had its first baby steps on the cold hard soil of our planet;earth.

oh lord, please have mercy on those scorned by the fiery lick of anger. yes. you know it. anger can lead to bloodshed. here's what i think of the current situation in the middle east. i'm no extremist. i just want to voice out my thoughts here. why does bush have to start a war with Iran? i mean yeah, there are extremists out there and IN MY OPINION, you cant possibly fish out them in the open, because they use the opportunity to live together with the mainstream muslims. i mean look at them, the mainstream muslims by the way, they're innocent and they can easily be branded and turn into extremists because they will see their brothers and sisters killed in combat. and you'll know what happens after that, the feeling of revenge looms over their head. this will create the never-ending spiral of lives ending in a blink of an eye. anger and war is turning people into worthless puppets of deception. they need to open their eyes and see the whole picture, instead of relying on their emotions.

i'm not against anyone here. you can classify me under a neutral status. im not inciting any ideas that may change your view of the world. im saying this out loud, but when you invoke anger into people, and i mean massively huge crowds, you have started a mini war. you have created a psychological dogma within the crowd of people invoked by anger.

and i personally don't want another world war. but i sense its presence right now. subtle and hidden from our conscious minds.

you'll be probably thinking why i post up this topic. well, something happened in the pages of my life today. up to you again. reader's discretion. i mean its hard to sound neutral for this topic, being angry is a healthy way to express your regrets and whatever you find unsatisfactory in your life . i'm not being biased or whatever in this sense. just open your eyes real big more often, you'll learn alot. trust me.

for the final piece -
"But in the truest parts of our hearts everybody's afraid. But just underappreciated and overwhelmed. Fighting so hard to hide our fear that were scaring ourselves" Slip out the back - FORT MINOR

p.s. two more days till my blog's birthday. jan 18.

so why blog?

2008-01-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

BIG HOO-HAA
everyone is entitled to have their own way of thinking. it is the right to every sentient being. basically, your own unique form of thinking usually affect the things you do. it encompasses your social interactivity, your own circle of friends and even how you view about the world around you. there are many ways to express your thoughts. take for example in ancient times, renaissance era- Shakespearean age, weaving your thoughts into poetry is highly regarded to be noble and humble because poems are to be interpreted by the reader. it somewhat gives the reader a portrayal of how the poet actually thinks about reality. namely, nature and emotions; that's because most poems are based on this two topics. surely enough, there are millions of ways to express yourself. from writing lyrics of a song to blogging- this is the 'in' thing for people to let themselves heard. kinda late to say that though. HAHA

SO WHAT?
ok. so you guys are wondering, what am i really talking about here? i admit, i have a tendency to blabber and ramble about things without a significant topic in mind, well, don't blame me, i'm just expressing myself in my own mysterious ways. here's a starter topic sentence, straightforwardly, i'm writing this because i am practising metacognition - defined as thinking about thinking. actually this is not alien to me and for some of you out there because there are times when we sit back and relax on our comfy seats and ponder about things, things that really make our brains go whee~~ and sometimes we are deeply in thought and we isolate ourselves from people. just like what people say - you're in your own world.

WHATS THE STORY MATE'?
here's what my friends, teachers and daily bloghoppers say about me and i've heard this word for millions of times. "you're philosophical eh?" as you can see from my posts, previous posts from yesteryear, they're somewhat mostly indirect to everyday life. you don't see me posting about what i did in a day. there are subtle meanings behind every post. every post has its own story. but that story is told from the pages of my life, i virtually translate them into "thinking" posts and pose them as life's learning lessons. to put it simply, i am kinda like the modern poet in the mainstream world- im a new breed of philosophical thinkers, and i'd like to meet my counterparts, where ever you are. please, i need contact! i need assurance! i need you!

OK, I GOT IT. SO YOU ARE A LONER?
no. im not! i have friends who have the same wavelength, frequency, blah blah whatever you want to call it as me. one of them is HCN- codenamed for maximum security, but i bet most of you know who she is. another one is JIA HONG- my colleague who's uber cool and he's the guy you can't judge him by first hand looks. upon further analysis and conversations, he's a deep guy who has battle scars, not literally. he's an experienced person who has his own way of dealing with the world. after through trials and tribulations that is.

SO WHAT REALLY IS YOUR PURPOSE FOR THIS POST? SERIOUSLY
as like i said before. i dont know? its up for you to decide. my reader. i'm not joking. really!

here's a linkage.
i don't need to tell you that life isn't fair, it doesn't care. it arbitrarily cuts off your air.

present that fell from the sky

2008-01-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

it's that dreaded day you'll find yourself a year older. nothing to fancy about on this day. just your normal everyday day. oh believe me. i didnt do anything special for myself, neither did my family. all i know that the space-time continuum is still in shape and that nothing wrong is going to happen some time soon. i hope

ok. let's get back to earth. yeah. today's my birthday, i've turned 18 a couple of hours ago. 18's the legal age in singapore. hoo-rah? boo-hoo? nah. i'd rather find myself being a child , innocent yet curious about the world that's changing really fast around you. yup. instead of playing that old SNES console games back then, i'd be playing PS3 console games right now, mashing the buttons until my thumbs are sore and getting the common singaporean syndrom - myopia! because i'll be playing 24/7. oh yeah. believe me, just give humankind a span of 10 years, and you'll see a lot of difference, then and now.

enough! with the nonsensical philosophical ramblings. let me tell you what i got for my birthday. its a present no one in this world will be able to give it to me. surely i wont tell you because you won't believe me. instead i'll show you what i got. here it is. but first, i'll tell you the story ok?

let me tell you this story.
the story i got my glory.
i donned on my secondary school uniform,
on the way to collect my bursary
before i took the lift down to the lobby,
an array of colours in the clouds, white and fluffy
caught my eye
a rainbow in the middle of the sky.

the present that fell from the sky.

p.s thanks to those who wished me happy birthday. thanks to akmal, zman, shu hua, qmac, tiq, tricia, patricia, haziq, tasha, xueen, siang ning , and the list goes on.....

adapt & evolve

2008-01-07T12:49:00.000+08:00

i dont know about you guys. and nada. not you guys from the little red dot, singapore;if you don't know what i actually mean.
i'm pinpointing you guys out there, from overseas. yes! i know you guys often pay a visit to my blog. hey! dont hide in the shadows now. i got it right here. anyone wants proof? here's one.

clickey

freeze! i got ya! 43.9%. now that's an overwhelming response. i'd actually thought most of my readers would come from singapore, well it is but i'm kinda surprised nearly half of you came from overseas.

and now that i've got your attention. i want to bring out this topic of multi-racialism and of course the mind-boggling topic considered to be a taboo for some;inter-racial relationships. for crying out loud, i accept this variation of relationship. as long as both parties love each other and respect one another's beliefs and rights, there is absolutely nothing wrong with it. considered a taboo? kinda weird i'd say. well, some of the 'reserved' singaporeans see it that way. dont know about you guys out there.

don't know what singapore is?

some quick pointers from me to you:

Singapore is a multi-racial country
It is a secular state
4 races in singapore. Mainly the chinese, followed by the malays, indians and the eurasians.
consists of 4.68 million people

ok. quickly digest this information. BURP! cos' you're in for a mouthful. seriously.

so here's the big hoo-haa of this blogpost. once, i was a happy-little-carefree-over-the-top-supercharged-active boy who knew nothing of the world. i accepted the fact that once you are malay, you are one. we malays have a strong sense of brotherhood. we stick to one another because physically and biologically, we are similar. apart from that, we have somewhat created a psychological dogma - not to mingle with other races. warning- this applies to some of us only, dont judge us as a whole. but even so, this is kinda sad because at such a young age, you are confined to a particular group of people, your own flesh and blood. and with that being a disadvantage, i was'nt able to know more about other races. LUCKILY - continued below

singapore is one such country whereby it urges its citizens to mingle with one another. the government is pro-active in implementing the policies to glue us together, whether you're an indian , a chinese , a malay or an eurasian. one such policy is that singapore has recongised the importance and neccessity of giving equal status to each race and religion. and LUCKILY - continued below

my mum is an open-minded person. one who holds her own principles and beliefs. she is not a person who follows the crowd, she's a strong-headed person. she'll pave the way for herself and for others to follow her steps. i am fortunate to have her as my mum. unlike other mums, she told me to make friends of different races. and yes i did. i had lots of chinese girlfriends. friends only. i was close to this old friend of mine. and she was my neighbour too. everyday, hmm, not everyday, we used to visit each other's house to play and learn. miss those times. i was in kindergarten during those days.

BUT things are about to change. after the never-ending efforts put in by the government, the races are actually closer more than ever. well, i know there are times in the past we were close but do you often see inter-racial couples in the streets back then? well, that's a usual sight right now. everywhere i go, from the nearby malls to the city, there's bound to have at least a dozen inter-racial couples. hmm, where do these lovey dovey lovebirds come from? how did it happen? its blooming everywhere and woah, growing at a fast rate. i know. love transcends everything. its taken the world by storm, since the beginning of time. without love, the world would be in chaos.

now for a personal statement. although it is mandatory for me to get a malay girlfriend/wife/soulmate. blah blah blah. that's ok and fine with me. but really, growing up with my chinese girlfriends kinda shaped my heart. personally, i'd prefer a chinese girl. now, thats not a shock for you after reading the text above for about say , 2 minutes? hey, i accept girls of the same race too. i know you'll think this guy is a desperate lovebird which is technically me, but to say this upfront, i'm not. i just want to express my thoughts and feelings, which is why this is called a blog. DUH!

thank you for your kind attention. now may i have your numbers girls? HAHA. JUST KIDDING! hey, i'm trying to make my blog funny you know?

for the finale.looks like we humans tend to take a long time when it comes to adapting and evolving. nuff said.

since we've gotten this far. how about reading this hilarious thread about a malay guy who confesses he likes chinese girls. NOT ME THOUGH! i got my own account on STOMP. =)

http://talkback.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=30606

hotel what?

2008-01-04T19:43:00.000+08:00

tokio hotel

it's the place you ought to be. away from the hustle and bustle. away from the polluted city. this hotel is far away in the countryside. it's a nirvana if you want to define it. but first, let me tell you this. this hotel is like no other. this hotel is a full fledged german rock band!

yeah. tokio hotel's a german alternative rock band. think they won't make it that far and reach to the international audience? no you say for a puny little band that sings in german? you've got it all wrong. this quartet have definitely made themselves heard, locally and internationally. i got to know about this band recently. let me recall, ah yes. they gave a stellar performance in the recent EMA ( europe music awards ) and won the best inter act award. the first song i heard from them was 'through the monsoon'. that song was a hit in germany. believe it or not, the song debuted when they were just 14. guess they're musical geniuses? germans are known to be innovative and inventive. they created the autobahn and the V2 ballistics rockets! or better yet, rock gods? nah. they have not gotten that far yet. but i'm expecting them to be huge sometime in the near future. why not? girls go GAGA over BILL KAULITZ. the lead singer. girls, do me a favor. watch the music videos and tell me what you think about him on my tagboard.

although they're german and sing in the german language, they will never fail to please the international audience. their album ZIMMER 483 was fully translated and sang in english. if you want to ask me which sounds better, i'd say the GERMAN version sounds better. after all, its in its native langauge. why not give it a try and listen to their songs?

1000 meere

rette mich/rescue me. available in eng too

spring nicht/don't jump. available in eng too

through the monsoon live. available in german too

now. talk about being multi-racial. first japanese, then german, next?

xpressmusic

2008-01-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

TODAY's THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
i went to school! but with a different purpose. i went back to school to collect my EAGLES award only. and to catch up with my teachers. and of course the food! and the students and the toilets and the facilites and the floor and the lights and the lift and the computers and the parade square and the hall and the AVA room and the classrooms and the canteen and the foyer and the general office and the ceiling.

ok. i'm exagerrating. so as i promised you guys yesterday. here's the review of my phone.

nokia 5610 xpressmusic.
it's a piece of ingenuity.
a phone designed for the ears.
it's an eye-candy too!

i'm doing a review on my new phone.
its a successor to the nokia 5300 in my opinion.

the nokia 5610 xpressmusic.

A PERSONAL DJ - the major feature of this phone is well, of course, it's magnificent music quality and its superb camera functions. this is truly a handphone dedicated to music. to honour the name of music, it has an dedicated on-board music chip to bring out the best in any music. the chip does justice in delivering top notch sound quality. from the deepest bass to the highest treble, it squeezes every drop 'music juice' in a song. tested it using the provided handset by nokia, the HS-81. the best thing of all is that the handset is free which costs about $88 in the market. of all music products i own, this phone pawns all of them! most of the nokia 5610 users claim that it is on par with the IPOD! this phone will rock ya world! period!

BEAUTY QUEEN - many of you know that the 5610 has a brother, sister, or whatever you guys call it, the nokia 5310. it has been featured in the ADs. these two phones are the latest products to be launched from nokia. well, in singapore that is. on first sight between these two phones, the 5610 is a bit larger than the 5310 because basically, the 5610 is a slider phone. what really sets apart the 5610 from the 5310 is the music slider key. the 5610 has a dedicated music slider button key for instant access to the music player and FM radio. the phone has a glossy finish, all black and cool-looking. all slick and smooth but it has to pay a price, it's a fingerprint magnet! it is very susceptible to fingerprints! the keypad is quite big, a plus factor for those who have big fingers, thumbs. available in blue and red versions. i picked the red one by the way. clad in red and grey, its the way to go for me! the screen is massively huge! i'm talking about an active TFT display of standard QVGA resolution (240 x 320 pixels) although its has the screen size as my old 5300, it looks somewhat bigger! which is great. duh?

SHUTTER PRO - apart from looks and the great music functions, the 5610 boasts a 3.2 megapixel camera. not too shabby for a dedicated music phone. it can take decent shots and it has an autofocus! packed with dual led flashes, it can take night photos with decent quality, not much to expect from a music phone. but still, 3.2 megapixels is a lot! i need not bring my camera from now on, which is ironically has the same 3.2 megapixels. HAHA! how shameful! that's because my camera is about 3 years old? some shots taken from my 5610 below -

shelter anyone?

flower

flower for you

for you again

a concrete seat with conflicting colors. Nice!

definitely not for you

my nephew

THE BRAINS - although it look and sounds great, the user interface is only S40. at first, i thought that it would be a SYMBIAN smartphone, S60 and up. talk about being a bimbo. but i'm quite satisfied with the interface, well, i'm used to the interface. it's also simple to use. you don't need to complicate yourself. its manageable and dummy-proof. it allows JAVA-enabled programmes to run. provided that the java programmes are specifically designed for the phone itself. and i love my roller-coaster rush 3D. this game had my friend hooked! talking about that SHEILINA! i got your rollercoaster rush 3D liao. all ready to download to your phone.

VERDICT- this phone is the one to get! especially if you're a music addict. kudos to NOKIA!

i know i got my friends drooling over the phone. so did this review convinced you guys to get this phone?

make that eight

2008-01-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

touchdown!
the first day of 08' is in full swing! hmm. i'd say otherwise and gladly take back my words.
want to know why? face it! everybody's sleeping after celebrating the new year at the stroke of midnight sixteen hours ago. alright fess up! i know most of you slept late at night and probably woke up up late in the afternoon. some of you are yawning right now. and a handful, scratching your scruffy hair.

alright, let's scrape that. i know that not all of you supposedly slept your way through the first day of 08. i know i'm not one of them because

i welcomed the new year with a bang! NOT. ok. so i stayed all day at home. here's my schedule for the past 16 hours.

Woke up.
Bathed
Played Final Fantasy 10.
Surf Net.
Photoshop-ed.
Learnt new words.
MSN-ed.
Watched MACROSS FRONTIER!! ( new anime series! all about warplanes and mecha AND! a gripping storyline even though only the first episode is out! ) Macross is my new love babe-h!
didnt i tell you guys im'a warplane freak? =p
don't believe me?
challenge me in ACE COMBAT then!
i'll rip the engine out of your measly plane.

let's dwell deeper into the realm of Macross shall we?
now now. hold my hand and don't let it go. (WARNING - applicable to ladies only.)
no words. just watch this video that will blow you away!

gotta love the space dogfight! its priceless i tell you!

macross zero series. i know i posted this before but hey! I LOVE IT!

its even on my HP! talking about HP, i'll post about my new HP and a review tmr.

an oldie. the movie that inspired me to fly. TOP GUN! highway to the danger zone.

drooling all over now? fret not!

here's a link to watch the full episode in high quality -

http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1712524RXgbb5cf?searchId=8793940127634791673&rank=1

too bad the next episode will be aired in APRIL 08!!! zzz.

that's all for this post.

for all you budding astronauts out there. ARTS central will be airing A SPACE ODYSSEY @10P.M tonight. i'm gonna catch it later!

sayounara

2007-12-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

the year's drawing to a close.
and its that time of the year again.
behold!
the transition period between this year
and the next.

we leave our past behind and carry the fond memories we had this year with us in the coming new year. no. for the rest of our lives.

there's a story to be told and heard every year. these stories make the year more meaningful and at times disheartening. and oh boy, the stories sure did their job. 2007 was choke-full of events that left a crystal clear mark in our lives.

let's look back at the awe-inspiring, jaw-dropping moments in 2007.

Live Earth. listen to this! music transcends culture and language. yes. when i switched on my television on the 7th of july 2007, all i saw was a mosiac of colors. people from different races gather together to remind each other that earth is our only home. and it is our duty to protect it, no matter who you are, what you are and where you are. we all share a common vision for the future, that is to continue life on earth. so, i urge all of you reading my blog out there, make this one of your new year's resolution - reduce on energy consumption.

Linkin Park's newest album, Minutes To Midnight. rock to this! i'm a big fan of LP! after a very,very,very long wait since they launched their previous album, METEORA, 2007 was marked by the sixtet as the year of surprise and yes, a comeback. my brother, who is also a big fan of LP, pre-ordered the album 2 weeks before it was launched and we were eagerly anticipating to listen to their new tracks. i tell you, the pain of waiting is excruciating! and when that day came, i was shocked to discover that LP had a new approach in their style of music. they were no longer labelled as nu-metal, like what most of you out there would brand them as. they've gone mainstream and to be frank, their music has lost its distinct sound from their previous albums, but nonetheless, their music are still playing right now - in my head. and im still a big fan of LINKIN PARK for the record! nothing can ever change that!!!

The launch of the PLAYSTATION3 console in Singapore. game to this! it is touted as the best next generation gaming console. armed with the electricity thirsty cell processors, a promising graphics processor unit and the technological marvels. well, i dont quite know the details of the PS3 specifications. this powerhouse gaming console can drive gamers to the edge of the seats with stunning visuals and crystal clear sounds that delivers seamlessly smooth gameplay. i'm talking as if i own a PS3! but in fact i dont! im so gonna get this baby! or anyone kind enough to give me one? haha. just kidding! BUT I WANT IT!!! especially with FINAL FANTASY 13!!!

Year of the NVIDIA. ogle at this! alright. for those of you who are scratching their heads and wondering...what the heck is NVIDIA? well. for starters, NVIDIA is a graphics card multinational company that provide computers all over the world with high-end, top quality graphics. this is especially so if you are a GAMER! we gamers crave for the best graphics card that is available in the market out there. hats off to the the super expensive graphics card. the NVIDIA GEFORCE 8800 ULTRA! too bad i only own a GEFORCE 8500GT silent. haha

SINGAPORE! FIRST TO OWN AN AIRBUS A380! fly to this! BIG DOES MATTER! this commercial flight plane is the biggest in its league. for a prestigious air flight company, SIA is honoured to have this new baby in the cot. i wanna have a ride!!!

HADY MIRZA as the first ASIAN IDOL! sing to this! i did not expect him to win the asian idol at all. same goes for the die-hard hady mirza fans. competition was stiff. to be frank, his vocals was just above average, the other competitiors had far more better vocals than him. but i bet that the judges and the fans decide on the package factor. package wise, i think hady deserved to win. kudos to him.

VIRGINA TECH SHOOTING. one of the most brutal shootings of our time. it taught us that even if you are a university undergraduate, you are still a human. a human who is not perfect. even if you have high education qualifications, and you do not have the morals in you, you are nothing.

ASSASSINATION OF PAKISTAN's OPPOSITION LEADER, BENAZIR BHUTTO. i've seen her on TV numerous times, she holds rallies to gain support from pakistanis to unite the nation under democracy, she was a strong woman, a confident one who holds her goals high. she is not scared to die, she is willing to go beyond the boundaries to spread the message the freedom and democracy in the country.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

chalet update

2007-12-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

Attn 5A

To those who are still deciding after i called you guys, here are the tentative dates.

18,19,20 January 08 - option 1
25,26,27 January 08 - option 2
1,2,3 February 08 - option 3

All of these dates fall on friday, saturday and sunday.

Please opt the dates you are available at the tagboard. You can choose more than 1 option.

That is all.

merry christmas

2007-12-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

merry christmas everyone!

birthday

2007-12-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

it was a double bash of epic proportions. lashes of thunder and lightnings i tell you. trailblazing the beach in search of hidden treasures that had left us soaking wet at the end of the day. an arsenal of presents waiting to be unwrapped by our two birthday boy and girl. yeah. the presents are deadly. deadly enough to burn a hole in your pocket. if you were to combine the total cost of the birthday bash that is. not to mention the death of my handphone. R.I.P

and the warranty does not apply if the product has been exposed to moisture, dampness and other extreme weather conditions.

guess i need to use my psychic abilities again to contact you guys again?

the bash was held at sentosa - Siloso Beach. intricately planned and carried out successfully by our two gorgeous damsels, Shu hua and Quraisya. the bash would'nt be successful without them. they were the ones behind the stage who place the pieces of the puzzles together, and made sure we had the time of the year before we leave kranji.

THANK YOU!

and to patricia. thank you for the farewell card. it's so beautiful. you're really a true blue natural artist. i really appreciate it. guess it's goodbye to you then. BUT, that doesnt mean we're not hanging out anymore. below is what she gave to me.

memorabilia

the section you guys like most. the photos!

yes. i can be that serious

smile for the camera girls!

smile!
bad hair day huh?

miss universe anyone?

don't bite me!

he cant be miss universe, how about mr universe?

im a monkey~~~

touchdown!

look up above the world so high

so stressed~~~

lalala hunks and babes

mirror mirror on the wall. which girl should ha*** get?

let's try something different now. rather than letting you readers out there visualising what really happened on that day, i've uploaded videos of the birthday party divided into three parts, the arrival and the climax. all hail the wonders of video imaging! it's not in high-definition glory though. well. i hope a low quality 3.2 megapixel camera with obsolete video functions will suffice!

the arrival.

Online Videos by Veoh.com

the matrimony

so the drama

chalet bookings

2007-12-13T09:13:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION! 5A
this is your commander speaking. Oo-RAH!

YOUR utmost co-oporation is needed. the CLASS is in dire need for money to book a chalet as fast as we can. YES! before those pesky sneaky leaky kiasu's manage to book before us and we're left stranded.

ROOMS ARE BEING BOOKED! FAST! IF WE DO NOT. I REPEAT. IF WE DO NOT BOOK AS FAST AS WE CAN, OUR CHANCES IN GETTING A CHALET ARE SLIM. SO! ALL OF YOU OUT THERE, THE WHOLE 5A LEGION, PUT ASIDE OUR DIFFERENCES AND LETS UNITE IN ONE VOICE AND OPRESS THE ENEMY! hmm. i dont even know who the enemy is. anyway....CHARGE!!! ( ok. lets stop and on with the details )

DETAILS HERE.
4,5,6 Jan 08
Either Costa Sands DOWNTOWN EAST OR PASIR RIS. ( still planning on which chalet to book )
Total Pricing - $200++ ( ++ means we need more money to plan our activities on that day - logistics )
Web -
http://www.costasands.com.sg/web/availabilityAndBooking/rates.aspx#DT

HOW ARE WE GOING TO GET THE MONEY?
well, akmal and i devised a plan to counter the problem of $ shortage.

OPTION #1
the class will meet up someday this week and each of us will contribute around $10-$20 ( i doubt this will ever happen )

OPTION #2
transfer $10-$20 to akmal's POSB account. ( for all you lazy bumps out there )

OPTION #3
if there is any kind soul in our class who has say...around $200 to spare. you are most welcome to lend the class a hand first. we'll..of course pay you back at the end of the day. ( best idea - not by me but by akmal ) talk about being pragmatic. GO SOCIAL STUDIES!

that's all. you're all dismissed. remember.
COOPERATION IS NEEDED!

we need to get this going.
don't call for a mutiny now.

One Gentle Reminder.
a rumour about cancelling the chalet outing is not true. do not believe this hearsay information!

what if

2007-12-09T00:43:00.000+08:00

WHAT IF's
it's about time i post about this topic.

everyday in our living, breathing planet which literally inhale gases such as CO and N2O. alright, you see the subtle message, i'm trying to bring out the conservationist in you.
no. no. NO. that's not the purpose of this post. =D

here's where the fun begin.
let's repeat one more time, without any fillers in between.

a day in this blue planet of ours spawn countless life stories. here's an example, picture this, a man who eat, drink, play, work and sleep in 24 hours. er. i think that's a typical example.

let's make this more interesting.
focus hard now, imagine a bearded old man fishing on a wooden boat in a salted lake in the alps. the lake's surrounded with ridges and plateaus that's blanketed by snow. he's got a tug on his fishing line now, he shouts, AR..MIGHTY FISH!. he musters all every bit of his energy left in his aged body and success! he caught the fish! what fish? i dont know. hey, its your imagination, so IMAGINE!

one's not enough. if not, this post would be boring.
i need you to hold on now, you still have a drip of of imagination juice inside of you. i know it. come on. now picture this, a lady in office wear, catches the attention from the guys in the office. she's really pretty, a miss world candidate i reckon. alright, in your head already? she gets up from her seat, taking a couple of pieces of paper along and holding a cup of coffee in another hand. she strides along the aisle of office desks. unknowing to her, a pen was on the office floor. so what happened? a normal homo-sapiens would have guessed it, she'll fall right smack on the floor, and the goody two gooder guys will rescue the damsel in distress. typicality aite?

NOW,
the moment you've been waiting for...
and wasted a minute of your life reading the useless text above.

WHAT IF.
the man and woman you imagined didnt even exist at all, of course, they were'nt real to begin with. now what if the man and woman really exist and the whole 2 incidents really happened. after all there're...

According to the International Programs Center, U.S. Census Bureau, the total population of the World, projected to 12/08/07 at 17:24 GMT (EST+5) is

6,636,201,642 beautiful souls living and breathing on this planet! need i say more?

NOW, here is the most exciting part you've been waiting for!!
and after wasting another 10 seconds digesting the text above.
i'm proud to announce that

WHAT IF
the earth , the galaxies, the stars(suns), and the whole of the universe is a blanket of darkness and emptiness. time don't even exist at all. hard to imagine huh? it's too surreal, its too unreal and it's utter blasphemy. im not to create an uproar or anything, sheesh. now im imagining things. to tell you the truth, i had this thoughts when i was still a kid. say around 6-7 years old. before that, i was influenced by the universe. i was awed by its beauty when i watched a documentary about it. cant remember the name of the documentary though. i thought that the universe was heaven. such juvenile thoughts. all because i thought zero-g was a cool thing and you can float in and wander to unchartered territory. that's what they say, the final frontier.

the beauty of the universe has to pay a price. ever since i watched ARMEGEDDON, i realized that the universe is not friendly as it seem to be.

do you know that we are all living on the edge? we are all blessed to be living our lives.

you know why?

in this universe , there's two matters actually. you know what's matter, everything that you see and touch is matter. so what's the other matter?

say hello to
ANTIMATTER. the direct opposite of matter. scientists have not yet fully understand what anitmatter is. but they know that, antimatter and matter are enemies. now, they are constantly cancelling, destroying each other when they meet. to balance the equation to say. and the beauty is that, the equation is not balanced. there is one extra, hidden particle of matter in this universe that's keeping the universe in shape. without the extra particle, all of us can say

goodbye to the universe. hard to believe?
then like i said
IMAGINE.

G-A-M-E

2007-12-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

an online addiction.
online games to be precise.

sure. you must have heard of it. maybe it came from the news, or first hand experiences from your own circle of friends. or maybe, you are ONE! now, don't roll your eyes away from the screen and click on a new link. this post is intended to show the shrouded demon behind the colourful veil of entertainment. hmm, double-edged sword anyone? -
( pun and also literally, taken in the context in an online gaming world e.g world of warcraft, hellgate etc)

and to make a clear stand before i rant, i'm not a goody-two shoes, don't judge me as a 'saint' who's going around telling kids not to play anymore. it a matter of your perception. i can be a bad boy too...

online gaming addiction. it's a plague that's infecting youngsters nowadays. across the globe. even in countries like Brazil, where soccer on the streets is on the decline. BUT, there are still hopefuls vying to be the next PELE or RONALDO. ok. coming back, yes. especially our own youths, singaporean youths. hard to swallow this undeniable fact? take a stroll along orchard road or your very own neighbourhood parks, and you'd hear something like this -

"eh you want to chiong maple/audi later?"

english translation - "do you want to slug it out on maple/audi later?

i think i've heard that line over a thousand times. games do give us a sense of entertainment. yes, you enjoy jumping on mushrooms and earning points, you love it when you get a headshot, you'll scream when you get the first place in project gotham racing 4. and the best of all, you're flying in the open skies, wandering around in an F-15 Strike Eagle fighter plane.(that's what i like about gaming) BATTLEFIELD & CALL OF DUTY SERIES! "starts jumping in room" FYI, i play those kind of games. i dont get hooked though, just over 2 hours of play time for me. i'll show you guys a video of me playing in game some day.

every good thing has to have a price. gaming has its negatives too. take for example, you'll be deprived of sleep, you'd be sucked into the world of *coughs* err...gaming, you'll neglect everything that's around you. your diet will essentially consist of instant noodles and canned drinks. ahh...the typical, dedicated , hardcore gamer. need i say more? ah..yes. ever heard of gamers committing suicide. you do, have not you?

some games for you guys to play, need to download the clients/programs though. haha. im contradicting myself now.

Free MMORPGs
FLYFF
SILKROAD
SHAIYA
GRANADO ESPADA ( F2P soon)
DOMO
FIESTA
AUDITION
MAPLESTORY

games i play.
BATTLEFIELD 2 & BATTLEFIELD 2142
CALL OF DUTY 4 : MODERN WARFARE
GUILD WARS : NIGHTFALL
THE WITCHER

here's the end to my completely nonsensical post about gaming.

red camp

2007-11-25T17:06:00.001+08:00

want to know a secret?
i won something BIG!
NO! HUMONGOUS!
NO! GIGANTIC!
MEGA!!! YES! =)

first and foremost. i'm really sorry i've not been blogging lately. =)
Cheerios!
update at last!

the week is drawing to an end and oh my, it has been jam-packed with fun-filled activities!
it was none other than RED CAMP 4!

here's a brief summary of what exactly is RED CAMP 4.

camp organised by Ngee Ann poly
approximately 2 thousand particapants
get to know more about poly life
make friends
3 day camp. 21st-23rd Nov
schools divided into five tribes, SPARTANS, VIKINGS, CENTURIONS, APACHE, NINJAS

before i start babbling about the camp. i want to say this out loud, VIKINGS ROCK THE BOAT! well, you guessed it, i was posted to the VIKINGS tribe. along with the kranjians who signed up for the camp a month ago. online. it's going to be super-duper long if i were to post the whole story on my blog.

so here's a short summary and highlights of the camp. no one likes long posts right?

we were treated with GREAT FOOD. we were entertained with GREAT PERFORMANCES. we were honoured as VIKINGS! last but not least i met my old friends,

VIOLET and AZIZAH!!!!

AND!! (im not done yet) =p

I WON A SAMSUNG SGH-E740 MUSIC MEISTER PHONE! courtesy of ngee ann poly and the magical hands of paul twohill.

now that's a short post for a really long story. check it out more at Z-man's and Aiiyame's blog.

reunion

2007-11-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

ahh. good old reunions.

there will inevitably be a time for anyone to part and leave something they have cherished for a long period of time. well, i've left my past behind, old friends and teachers that have been with me. how naive of me not to keep in touch with them. how i really wished my primary school would organise a reunion for the 97' batch o' students. FYI. i was a loyal student of Choa Chu Kang Primary School.

O.o
i still remembered how the teachers adored me. especially my primary six form teacher.
Ms Lim. she was a petite, beautiful, had flawless radiant skin. yeah. i was teacher's pet back then. she used to ask me everytime she had trouble with her heavy load of workbooks to be carried to class. and me being the so called 'teacher's pet', i had to obey every single order she gave to me. good times..good times..

BUT. this post is not about reminiscing my past. OMGosh! i've been rambling about my past.
ACTUALLY. this post is about the reunions of

MUSICIANS!!

Yes! old-school bands are making a comeback! and they're coming down hard. it's not just one or two bands that are making their presence felt again in this modern world. i'm talking about a dozen of bands and artistes.

NOW. is this a phenomenon or purely a mere coincidence?

big bands from the east and west are rising from the ashes. yes. not only american bands are crawling their way up to the limelight again, but japanese old-school bands are too making their way onstage too .

WHEE! i can't wait for them to re-surface.

here are the some of the bands that will be reuniting.

Eagles.
Spice Girls
Led Zeppelin
Luna Sea
X Japan
The Police
Van Halen
Whitney Houston

ok. i'm done with this post. and the voting system is up and running. 5A-ians. Please vote for the date/s you will be available for our class chalet.

Thank You

Cats

2007-11-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

you know you cant resist this uber-cuteness.

welcome home

2007-11-18T20:39:00.000+08:00

=) to mini

rock a bye mini on the big bed.

when its lights out, she will fall asleep.

now she's asleep, soundly in bed.

please let no one 'kajiau' in her dreams.

tralala. lalalala. have a sweet dream.

cutie mini!!

stigma

2007-11-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

you know. you've run into some ugly scenes and episodes in your life. not in a personal context though, i'm bringing about the issue into a broader perspective. i know this is straight out, outright and bias. being a singaporean, you can either count this post as reliable or objective. because in the end. it all boils down to you. the reader. and oh. readers discretion is required.

here it is, brace yourselves.
most singaporeans are known
to be 'kiasu' and 'kan chiong'.
dont understand these two
words? welcome to singapore then. sorry. i dont even know how to translate it in
english. =p

OK. i know we need a multitude of incidents, evidence or proof to judge something ourselves. so i have it all. in just two short days, barely 24 hours apart, i ran into some ugly scenes in the heartlands. 2 incidents. yup.

here's the first.
it's common to see hordes of people crowding around the mrt cabin gates. even though, the signboards clearly show the words, give way to alighting passengers, some self-centered, stingy people will try to make their way into the cabin, with a variety of ways to get their butts on a seat, shoving, pushing, running, you name it.
i'd call it the butt-itch-ietes. dang. what in the world is that word. =p

and who to save the day? a foreigner of course! because some singaporeans can't be bothered to help themselves. let me recall what he had said to the ugly singaporeans.

"please. can't you let the others alight first. it's a sign of respect...***pid singaporeans."
YES! at last, a brave voice among the masses. i'd salute him if i meet him again.

and here's the second.
hoping to get a breather after the episode the day before. i was treated to another ugly scene. location? holland village. the epicenter of you know who. foreigners from the west. my friends and i were circling around holland village shopping center in search of our graduation night outfit.

yadda here. yadda there. and pop. i overhead a conversation between a typical singaporean and a foreigner. i swear i was close to bursting into laughter when i sort of eavesdrop on their conversation. let me recall. hmm.

foreigner: ( did'nt remember what he said ) i remembered his expression.

singaporean: if you want more. shopping shopping downstair.

muahahahaha. ok. that's enough.

work!

2007-11-15T09:30:00.000+08:00

Yes! i've completed my first assignment from adecco! it was a temporary job, did stocktaking for Lexmark International (S) Pte Ltd for the past two days. 13 & 14 Nov. there was a drawback though, it was located right smack at the eastern end of Singapore. yes! Changi!. Airport Logistics Park Avenue to be exact. we had to pass a maze of warehouses full of fragile goods such as printers, games and anything you would find in a shopping mall that were shipped from all over the world.

work started at 9a.m and ended at 7p.m and 7.30p.m respectively for both days. it was roughly about an 8 hour job from which we were given overtime payment after 5.30p.m. and guess what. we were paid $7/hr, that's just normal timing. once we outlasted the 'ordeal' after 5.30p.m, we were paid $10.50/hr! yes! how exciting. i'm sqealing right now. however have to wait a week before we get the $... imagine if i work for the company for a good one month. i'd get about SGD$1300++

looking back. comparing KFC and this job are worlds apart. HAHA!
the job is
utterly easy to deal with.
here's a crash course on stocktaking.

you pair up with a partner. i was with Lynn. yeah. the guys were jealous of me. they got 'matured' partners. LOL.
you and your partner will be designated to one row of goods. towering heights of goods.
both of you will need to work together and count the number of product parts.
tally the total no. of goods.
you sit down in the pantry and wait for the next order.

and the best of all. the employer is really thoughtful and nice. his name is Reane Padeli. sounds like a foreigner but to my surprise, he was a malay. we were given ample time to rest. food was provided by him. we even had teabreaks, with cupcakes, sugar rolls and puffs all lined up on the pantry table. it was like a mini buffet rather than a teabreak. Lynn treated me well, she works at the Lexmark office at Novena square. every year, some unfortunate office workers have to take stock of Lexmark products at the warehouse. she was one of them. LOL. she told me how much she hated it. LOL. workplace was really dusty, believe me, it's a potential asthma killer zone. other than that, it's a dream job for nothing to do at home students like me! (because of the pay!) LOL

outburst

2007-11-12T15:59:00.000+08:00

i want to express my feelings. period

my heart calls out your name everytime. every beat of it. i cant help it
but i see you everywhere. in my heart and dreams. yes. my heart draws dreams of
you. a lot of words i want to say, only one emotion i want to portray. even if
the words don't make sense, i'll paint a picture of it for you. for one day your
heart will understand it. people usually say these three words, i'll say four.

i truly love you.

Revolt

2007-11-07T07:43:00.000+08:00

"it's time to take to the skies. once more."

at last we endured a lethargic week of enduring madness and solitude. a spiralling cockscrew of endless twist and turns have left me wanting to blog about the irresistible incidents that happened the previous month. yes. it's been a month since i last blogged. the 4Th of Nov post was a teaser for the latest change in my blog.

and yes. the O's are over.

revolution.

2007-11-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

a new revolution is about to unfold.

children's day

2007-10-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

to all the children. and to the young at heart. HAPPY CHILDREN's DAY!!

life story

2007-09-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

i've written a story in conjuction with the previous post. this story will at least give a visualisation of what life meant for some unfortunate people.

LIFE.

"i feel that my whole life is in a mess. my father's a drunkard. while my mother, constantly beaten up by my stubborn father" i mumbled silently to myself.

my whole world revolved only on violence, hate and fear. throughout the 13 years in my life, i've been countlessly caned vehemently by my father for doing nothing. my mother did nothing to stop the mindless assaults from my father. my skin would tear and bleed and blisters would sprout all over my body. there was a point in time, 3 years ago to be exact when i decided to end my life.

that day was the same as any day. my father took out his leather belt from his dusty brown cupboard in his cluttered bedroom,filled with soccer magazines and cigarette ashes.just as the belt was in his filthy hands, he frantically chased my mother around the 4 room HDB flat. as my mother ran towards the hall, she was trapped between the walls of the hall and the window.

i just stood there, stared at my parents without crying. i was used to it. "it will all soon end in a matter of minutes and for good" i spoke to myself. there was a shiny tint over to my right shoulder. i went to the kitchen. "goodbye parents. goodbye life" i mumbled.

the next thing i knew, i was lying on a comfortable bed. it was all quiet. i could only hear a humming of a familiar machine.a buzz that could only be heard on those hospital dramas.as i opened my tired eyes,i saw two distinct but unexpected expressions from my parents. they had wide smiles on their faces and were crying asi woke up my reverie. they instantaneously hugged me and for the first time in my life, i shed a tear. a genuine tear.

the nurse barged in.my daybreak meal arrived. and i stared intently at the cutlery set. the knife could have killed me.but my parents saved me.

after that whole incident,it was the trigger and ignition to the change i saw in my parents. they have realised their mistakes by neglecting me. my father has reformed, he's no longer a drunkard. he has developed a healthy lifestyle.he would always ask me out on saturday afternoons to jog with him at the choa chu kang stadium race track. i appreciate life more than ever now. i realised that life has something in store for us in the future. sooner or later...

life

2007-09-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

an inspiration.

why is it that some people throw away their own lives?

is it because of the immense pressure placed upon their shoulders?
is it because the world do not accept for who they are?
or is it really because that they feel that there is more to life after death?

i know. we all know that life is a privilege. everyone has the shared opportunity to experience the finer side of life and of course, the ugly things that life bombards us with. life is not just an ordirnary noun. but in fact it is a noun that branches out to a plethora of definitions. life cannot be defined by one man. life is defined by only by ourselves. we perceive and understand what life is as time passes by. no one can teach us how to define life. we learn what life is when we really know what life is. through our first hand experiences, memories that inspire us to move on, and heartfelt care and concern from our loved ones, we will know how to live life as it is.

there is no such thing as a perfect life. there will be undoubtly and inevitably, the ups and downs in our lives. like the waves of the sea. sometimes the sea has high tides and sometimes low tides. that's how life is. there would be a part of our lives where we would experience joy and happiness and love. another part, we would undergo through tests that life has laid out for us. in the near future. some of us have undergone the nasty things that life have given us.

i know there's been a lot of suicide cases. most of them involved teenagers aged 18 and above. i cant really say what they have gone through though. but i know that it is of a magnitude that i cant really understand. for after all, they are the only ones that understood what life meant to them and what life had given them. here's a real example. i was in a state of disbelief when i heard news of a relief teacher that took over my class for SS lesson and committed suicide the day after. A DAY AFTER she relieved our class. she seemed happy and was all smiles when she relieved the class. but i sensed something was wrong. really wrong. she had sad eyes and looked lethargic. i know because i have somewhat an ability to detect sadness within someone.

FINAL SIDENOTE
before i end the post.

i preach this out to all of you that do not throw away your precious lives. I REPEAT DO NOT throw away your lives. BECAUSE you have not learn what life really is and what life has in store for you.

told never to give up.

2007-09-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

told never to give up. - from a spartan

in 3 weeks time. "o" level candidates will face off their enemies at the gates. it will be a test of resillience, faith, patience and hardwork. a test that will pre-determine their very lives. it will be a brutal close-quarters combat. and one that you'll see me in action. because i am the commander of my own will. my actions will decide my fate of my future.

SO KRANJIANS! Sec 4Ex and 5Na.

IN THREE WEEKS, WE DINE IN THE HeALL!

CHARGE!!!
we fight because we are born to.

kyle.hopkins chronicles

2007-09-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

i am a boy. i am 15 years old. i have no parents. i was separated from them a long time ago. i live in an old shack with barely enough food to keep me alive for a week. i live alone. i live my own life. no one has ever taught me how to be independent. this war that ravaged across the nation taught me how.

(9th july 1947) Kyle.Hopkins [7]
JUST US

she was the first one to rest against the rigid texture of the tall douglas fir tree. how ironic is'nt it? she was the one dragging her feet like a snail all along our journey and out of the blue, she mustered all her energy and ran towards the tree like a cheetah. i picked up my pace and scanned the premises for any dangerous animals or insects that may be lurking around it. luckily, there was'nt any poisonous snakes near the tree. else, she'd be injected by the infamous poison from a python. this forest is swarmed with them. i must not let my guard down. i need to protect to her.

i placed my heavy supplies next to the tree and planted my butt on the grass patch. thank god, it was a relief to get that load off my shoulders. it's been straining me. i felt free. the ground was all hard and stiff. undulating to be exact. how am i going to rest like this? i looked over to my left side. clare had her eyes closed and hugged one of the dead soldier's stuffed toy. stuffed toy? where did it come from? the nazi's sure have a soft spot. afterall, they're still humans.

it was a brown teddy bear with a red bowtie on its' neck. the bear looked as if it was gasping for air as clare held it close to her. it didnt took any longer than five minutes before a streak of lightning flashed across the azure sky. BOOM! , that particular deafening sound woke clare up from her reverie and she let out a shriek.

and she wailed. uncontrollably....

the seventh instalment of the kyle.hopkins diary.(there's a mix of past and present tenses because this is a diary. portrayed in a form of a story) i know there's been a lot of fillers since part 5. this is supposed to be part of my story. 9th july is a special day in my story. so the next part will be the last for 9th july 1947

cinderella

2007-09-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

cinderella - aeonex

you, eternal rain.
flooding my once lovely life
why cant you stop?
i want to see the beautiful world.
oh please

opened my eyes, opened my heart
nothing happened.
what is wrong with me?
oh someone please tell me why?
why?

as the days passed
i looked out of the window
my life, gloomy as ever
when will you come and take me away from here?
now?

like the river flowing to the seas
you came from nowhere
at last,
rain stopped once i saw the purity of your heart
how did you stop the perpetual pain inside of me?

how did you manage to soothe my pain ?
just by saying a few words
just by looking at me intently
just by being with me
how?

is it because
i was wrong to be hurt,
i was wrong to feel pain,
i was wrong to be in the rain.
or is it wrong for me to cry?

all i know is that
you took my hand.
held it tightly.
you promised never to let it go
and brought me,
away from my past,
present
and towards our future.

here's another one of my poems i crafted. specially going out to all the real life cinderellas in this topsy-turvy world.

low fare.

2007-09-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

fancy a ride on a budget, low fare airtrip?

yes? no?. choose either one.

ultimately. it's all up to you. but with the endless stream of accidents. you might want to reconsider immersing yourself in a cheap affordable airflight. i agree, those budget flights are really attractive, especially to those who have not experienced being one with the skies before. everyone, or perhaps anyone have the shared opportunity to fly in the skies.

the budget airflights may not be the enjoyable flight available in the commercial arena(airflight). well, that's what you get when you pay less than $50 for a flight. money talks. nuff said. what i don't like about these flights is that they lax over the safety of their passengers. firstly, you are riding in a under-maintained passenger aircraft. secondly, these aircrafts are probably about half to a decade old. thirdly, you are putting your life in the line.

now.now. before you start flaming me.i want to adress this fact that i am not making any direct blow to any of the budget airlines available in the market. it's just that i want you people to realise that what you give is what you'll recieve. it's cheap but at the same time it's risky.

i know, this is considered one of my lame ramblings in my blog. i dont know why i even wrote about this. =p

kylehopkins.chronicles

2007-09-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

i am a boy. i am 15 years old. i have no parents. i was separated from them a long time ago. i live in an old shack with barely enough food to keep me alive for a week. i live alone. i live my own life. no one has ever taught me how to be independent. this war that ravaged across the nation taught me how.

(9th July 1947) Kyle. Hopkins [6]
A BREAK

we've been walking. walking on the long stretch of the asphalt road for a commendable two days. well, if it weren't for the first hand confrontation against the nazi fascists two days earlier, we wouldn't have survived this long. alas hope was running out, fast. supplies were dwindling. our legs, failing us. in short -

WE ARE TIRED

the unforgiving heat, the relentless wind, the smell of fear. those are the things that bug me the most. i did'nt quite know how, but with her on my side, walking with me, i feel rejuvenated just by looking at her. she has this aura that radiates from within. just by looking at her, i feel anew. and she would smile effortlessly as i lay my eyes everytime on her ever since i saved her life.

BUT

it was different today.

there was a different tone in her eyes. the invigoration she had inside her since day one was not discernable today. deep down inside i, knew something was amiss. or maybe she was too tired. tired of walking of the never-ending stretch of the road. we were far, really far from reaching the encampment. it would take another five days to reach the outskirts of the allied camp. well, that's what the map states. she was even more upset when she heard that bad news. she cannot take it anymore. she was too tired to continue walking. beads of sweat materialized on her forehead as the sun continued to beat down on our fragile bodies. she had endlessly tried to wipe off the sweat off her forehead, but to no avail. i really hoped that the wind would soothe our agitated state right now. how i wished.... it's still summer time here.we just have to bear with it...

as though god heard our silent prayers, we found a huge douglas fir tree. it was as if the tree had a mini canopy. we seeked shelter under the shade. hoping to provide us some protection from the unrelenting heat.

also to unwind and talk to her...
and to at least know more about her.
about her past, present and the dark future that lie ahead of us.

the sixth instalment of the kyle.hopkins diary.(there's a mix of past and present tenses because this is a diary. portrayed in a form of a story)

kyle.hopkins 5

2007-09-13T12:20:00.000+08:00

anyway, i admired her initiative to gather resources.

a shiny tint caught my eye. i walked towards the heap of junk. no. it was not a heap of junk. it was full of survival kits. 1m of it. i dug the shiny object out. it was a dog tag, the dead soldier's dog tag. SKMITCFH RYKE - commanding officer of the 25th battalion. so. i killed one of their big fishes. how admirable of me. i grabbed every single kit that brings benefit to me and clare. an ID pass,map, canned red beans, loaves of bread, bottles of vodka. it was all sufficient for me and her. i didn't want to bring any unnecessary load. else i'd be dragging my way to the allied encampment located at least 10km northwest of here.

a slight tug of my elbow unexpectedly came from nowhere, i turned and clare smiled widely at me. she brought me to her very own dining restaurant, in the middle of nowhere. she had laid out 2 sets of breakfast for us to indulge in. one each. man. im starting to like her. it was the most scrumptious breakfast i've ever had. 10 years of mushroom soup everyday and a day of breakfast with baked potatos is really something. and i asked her where'd she learnt how to cook. she's a cook , that explains her cooking.

i thoroughly cleansed the metal plate. licked every drop of potato juice left on the plate. and as i placed my plate down, she laughed. i laughed, too. we practially laughed like it was nobody's business. i savored that moment. it's been aeons since i last laughed. the same goes to clare too. swift like a hummingbird, clare hugged me. and i embraced her. she thanked me. for making her laugh. i thanked her too. we now have a lot in common. i planned on knowing more about her on the way to the encampment. and i hope we don't run into any enemies.

i hope that we can live in peace after this damn war ends...

every evidence of us being here was cleared. we each played a part cleaning up the mess we made. the cold bodies of the soldier's were dumped near the trees but not visible to the naked eye. i brought along the MP40 weapon, grenades and a semi-automatic handgun in my pocket. i was prepared to protect her. at all costs. even if it means losing my life.

the half track would be rendered useless for me. i thought. i cant drive.

and so, i set foot on my journey to the allied encampment. with clare beside me.

the 5th instalment of kyle.hopkins. =)
the last paper for prelim 2 is tomorrow. and its paper 1 for both physics and biology.

tremors

2007-09-12T21:08:00.001+08:00

i'd thought the 7 hours of self-intensive biology revision in school and at home made me lose my edge.

halfway studying, at about 7.15-7.20p.m (GMT+8 Singapore). i experienced a headache. it's as if my whole flat was shaking. i reckon that it was not an ordinary headache. my whole flat won't be shaking if i have a headache . LOL.

so, to double check my own deductions, i checked for water ripples in my glass of cold water. nope. no water ripples. therefore, i was convinced that it was just a headache.

BUT

as soon as STOMP's webpage loads on my moniter, i was taken aback. it displayed this startling news.

JUST IN.
TREMORS IN SINGAPORE
things shake, people giddy, people flee as tremors from Sumatra quake rattle S'pore.

in actual fact, i was really having a headache, but that was back at school. know what happened?
i was packing up and placed my bio notes in my bag.
actually, i packed my bag on the ledge outside the school library.
the ledge was two storeys high. as i was packing up, i accidentally nudged my very own pencil box.
it fell to the ground!!

let me calculate the energy produced by the pencil box when it was falling.

[G.P.E=mgh
GPE=0.8kg(im guessing the weight of my pencil box) X 10m/s X 3metres(should be it)
GPE=24Joules]
Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it can only change from one form of energy to another form of energy.
so according to that.

the amount of energy produced equals to the sound that it produced.
wanna know how it sounded like?
"POP!" =pp

hey. at the same time, i was also conducting an experiment. =pp

and tomorrow marks the beginning of the fasting month for all muslims around the globe.

special

2007-09-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

do you tremble in fear when your loved one is taken away from you?
yes?
so. do you crawl towards one of the corners of your room and cry for hours?
and. do you think of them often?

ever felt that there's a widening rift between you and a person you love most?
i know. you feel that there's a gap that is not visible to the naked eye but discernable to the heart. only.

no one in the world can see this gap. only you. you are the only one who understands it. no matter how complicated it is.

i mean. look. we'll not understand what a person has gone through.(e.g obstacles, hardships faced in life) although he or she may look really calm on the outside (it's really hard to know if they have problems), there are a myriad of mixed emotions and feelings swirling inside their heart and soul. that makes them who they are. that makes us human. he or she know themselves best. they know what makes them happy, sad, nervous, afraid.

they will soon know who they love and the rightful person to love them for the rest of their lives.

here's something that'll make you understand what i'm really talking about. hopefully

[imagine. a boy with his family living in the street corners. they begged in the streets. for that is what they did for a living .the parents are mentally-challenged. and one day. dark black, ominous clouds swirl above the skyscrapers. soon, heavy rain swept the streets. a gang of thugs invaded the place where the family calls home. they took money away from the family. sadly, the parents were killed because they tried to protect the boy. the boy was left alone then. alone in the cold rain. with no one left to take care of him....]

see. i bet you experienced a mix of emotions(the ones that will make you cry) inside of you after reading my fictitious story. please. i beg. don't let my story be true. we humans are special, we have the gifted ability to understand people's emotions. (on the surface) but when we truly love a person (be it close friends or lovers), we'll gradually understand that person more in time. we'll know what he or she likes and hates.

we'll also be able to feel the person's heart. we'll become one with that person. it's like you are that person. and that person is YOU! (sounds surreal huh? trust me. you'll understand it if you really love that person.)

lets come back to earth now.

ok. i fess up. i have a special friend whom i am fond of. fill in the blanks [m...] i know. it's kinda unexpected. we've been friends for just a few months and poof, we are now friends. but closer than ever. what you've read above this text is dedicated to her. i want to let the whole world now that she is really special. a one in a million. no. a one in infinity.

p.s sorry my friends disturbed you. i had this tingling feeling to find you after you left the library. but i dont know why. i am sorry for not being there.(11 sept 07)

and btw, in memory of the 9/11 incident.

six years on. we will remember all of you.

awakened

2007-09-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

people. break out of the hard shell that encapsulates us! don't be a square. i repeat. don't be a person who sticks and abides by your own habits and the routine practices of the norm. that kind of attitude will hinder us from being who we are supposed to be in life. i mean, we have to be adventurous and try something new. we have to know ourselves and unlock our true potential.

we have to be awakened. so as to say.

we need to get rid of that so called unbreakable shell and have the tenacity (might also say the stubborness-hey. it's a good thing too!) to take a step forward. because its what we don't usually do. start something small first, say. you are always stuck at home, staring in front of your computer for hours and you let your own sands of time dwindle before you. i must say, but this is the sad fact that can be seen in singapore's society especially the teenagers. it's affecting everyone, from a 9 year old to a grown-up 20 year old. they would just glue their eyes to the black/white monitors that entertains them.

now, let's say you do that. and i say how do we use that detriment and turn the tables around. we CAN use it to our advantage.

here's a some real life scenarios. see if it benefits us. judge it yourself.

aeonex's ten advice.

1. set up your own business blog. you sell your own junks. any stuff that lay around your house.
2.be an techno-preneur. sounds so chim?(difficult) well, u can make your own cookies and sell them online. but start slowly.
3.be an aspiring gamer and hone your gaming skills. dont just play games at home. but ENTER GAME COMPETITIONS AND CONTESTS! $$$
4. set up a blog. make stories and poems on your blog. your english will gradually improve. trust me. =)
5.put ads on your blog and hope visitors will visit your site regularly. more visitors=more $$$
6. participate in forums and discuss issues. you will benefit this alot. it will open your mind.
7.read online news everyday. for me it will be BBC news. keeps you updated and also broadens your mind.
8.chat with people of different cultures. not just among singaporeans. you will gain more insight about life.
9.learn HTML! you'll love it.
10. read my BLOG!

so. there you have it.
ten wonderful things to do on your computer and not just stare at it and let your mind wander in cyberspace.

SEE.

1.you can earn money!
2.you can learn more than from your school textbooks
3.you will slowly but surely be able to break yourself from that shell.

this does not only apply to using computers. it applies to everything. your life. be creative and remember this. it applies to every aspect of your life. dont follow others. BE YOURSELF!

so people, are you awakened?

kyle.hopkins chronicles 4

2007-09-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

i am a boy. i am 15 years old. i have no parents. i was separated from them a long time ago. i live in an old shack with barely enough food to keep me alive for a week. i live alone. i live my own life. no one has ever taught me how to be independent. this war that ravaged across the nation taught me how.

(6th July 1947) Kyle. Hopkins [4]
NOBODY

she was the most beautiful girl i had ever seen. her beautiful brown almond-shaped eyes reminded me of my mum. her short dark brown hair smells that of a rose. she was all skin and bones. that's what would happen to you if you end up as a prisoner of war. another reason for me to hate those soldiers. anyway, she held me ever so tightly. i had difficulty breathing. well, its better to die like this rather than being killed by those nazi fascists. actually it''s kind of relaxing. it was as if my worries were completely gone, vanished into thin air. i'd wished she embrace me forever.

unfortunately, lady luck was'nt on my side. my wish didnt come true. she let go of my frail, mud-ridden body. now she has the muddy stains on her shirt as well. we're both muddy, filthy and unwanted. i wondered if she felt the same way as me. so i asked.

she had no name. she cannot recount how she got into this bloody mess. all she remembered was waking up in a concrete, compact prison cell and the fact that she was a british citizen. the nazi despised the british. she was fed with leftover breads, probably mouldy and drank mudwater everyday. she'd always throw up after consuming the contaminated foods. that is how she was reduced to skin and bones. she ended up being in the forest as she was en route to the city of PALISKA to serve the 1051st nazi infrantry division. to serve the nazi soldiers as a prostitute. well, that's a city i wont venture to.

i pity the nobody. i pity her.
she was thankful to me. i had saved her life from doom.

the corpse of the soldier near us laid motionless. the nobody grabbed the dead soldier's bag. it contained a bottle of vodka and 3 loaves of fresh bread. she ate it. even though she ate like a ferocious hyena, she still looked like a serene angel. like my mum. she remembered about me, she handed me a loaf of bread and i accepted her gracious offer. we sat side by side, accompanied by the dead soldiers. it was all too surreal for me. i had killed two soldiers. but i felt nothing. i felt no remorse. especially since the nazi took my family away from me.

that took away my purpose in life.

but, i saw it all coming together now. i realised that i had another meaningful pupose to achieve in life. i want to help the world get rid of the injustice that has been brought upon this once peaceful world.

soon, the sun set in the distance, obscured by the trees. the night wind was brewing. out of the blue, the nobody laid her heavy head on my lap. she was tired. i guess. i caressed her hair. the same way my mum stroked my hair. i saw the clouds move in closer to the both of us. i carried her near the half track. at least it'll provide us some cover from the rain later in the night. i laid beside her. and for the first time in my life, i slept in peace.

from now on, i name you CLARE. after my mum. i whispered to her ears.
another pupose in my life. i'd swear to put my life in the line for her to live as a normal, happy girl in this world.

here's the 4th instalment of kyle.hopkins diary. hope you like it. i dont know how long this story would stretch. myriads of ideas are in my imagination right now. all i can say is that the story will be my longest work ever. =)

mega & mini chronicles leave

2007-09-07T17:42:00.000+08:00

the final chapter of mega & mini chronicles. but fret not, i will make more of it if i have the time! especially after the "o" levels!

*ferrero rocher and pon & zi are respected works of ferrero & azuzephre respectively.

P.S to mini.

today's your last day in monsterland[ you know what i mean =( ] & here's a comic that is specially for you! =)

kyle.hopkins chronicles 3

2007-09-07T10:53:00.000+08:00

FIRST TWO KILLS

tensions run high. my human instincts told me to run away from unnecessary danger. it was two heavily armed nazi soldiers against a nobody. they were armed with a new variant of the "Schmeisser" MP40. it seemed to have an upgraded targeting renticle. well, that's what you'll get after 5 years of a never-ending war. those greedy war chiefs convinced their governments to churn precious national resource into developing new weapons that are more efficient to kill.

i HATE weapons....

i had to save the girl. i cant bear myself to see a young girl being mistreated. it was just to unbearable. i went into a prone postition, slithered silently like a cobra. the mud took its toll on my shirt. now i'm a filthy nobody. ever slowly, i reached out for the only weapon i had with me. i grabbed the plastic butt of the knife. held it tightly, for it is my only hope of survival. the survival of both the girl and myself. i needed all the luck in the universe to save her.

lady luck might be smiling at me. one of the soldiers left the vicinity while the other kept watch on the girl. i slowly crept behind the soldier that had left the area. he was smoking, possibly stressed about the girl. he had his guard down. soon, i found myself behind him. like a prancing tiger, i cupped his mouth and stabbed him in the heart. an abrupt end to his life.

i felt sorry for the soldier. i hate to kill. no. i hate war. but i was forced to do it. it can't be helped. i want the war to END!

the soldier left his mp40 lying near his corpse. i picked up the heavy weapon and went back to the half track. i had one more soldier left to exterminate. the girl was sobbing. the soldier had his weapon aimed directly at the girl. i had to act fast.

unfamiliar with the weapon in hand, i aimed the mp40 at the soldier. i pulled the trigger. bursts of blinding light ejected from the nozzle of the mp40. the projectiles hit the soldier. blood spewed out from the soldier's body. that's it. my second kill.

the sobbing girl let out a hysterical scream. i rushed to comfort and hugged her. her tears made me cry too. we cried. it was the first time i cried with someone. someone who shared the same sentiments as me.

P.S some of you are confused. there's a mix of past and present tenses in this story. i know. it's supposed to be like that. this story is actually in a form of a diary of a person named kyle.hopkins. i like this kind of creative writing as it allows me to express the character's inner emotions, no holds barred. so there's bound to be a mix of past and present tenses in the story. anyways, i hope you enjoyed the third instalment of the story. =)

mega & mini chronicles 3

2007-09-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

here's the eagerly awaited, mega & mini chronicles chp 3

kyle.hopkins. the long path.

2007-09-06T10:13:00.000+08:00

i am a boy. i am 15 years old. i have no parents. i was separated from them a long time ago. i live in an old shack with barely enough food to keep me alive for a week. i live alone. i live my own life. no one has ever taught me how to be independent. this war that ravaged across the nation taught me how.

(6th July 1947) Kyle. Hopkins [2]
THE LONG PATH

it's been two days. two days since i left my that bloody old shack. i've been coughing all day long. the extent of the foul smell of the dead bodies is unimaginable. it's like a biological warfare blown into a surreal proportion. i have had to cope with the harsh reality that is impending me now. the reality that i had chosen for myself.

it was a windy day. the trees in the forest swayed in unison. the path i took was protected by nature. blocked by the menacing eyes of the nazi fascists. every step i took. glimpses of my past flashed before my very eyes. i remembered how my mother caressed my hair. her hands were smooth. i imagined her touch. her motherly touch. i remembered how she used to chase me around just to feed me. i was a playful boy then. she CHASED me around just to FEED me. i love you mum.....

sometimes, this tiny little voice in my head seduced me to grab that small swiss army knife from my side pocket and just stab myself. straight in the heart. but my mother had said this to me a long time ago "you are the greatest gift that i can ever have" it's been a while since i cried. that simple sentence brought me to my knees. i knelt down on the solid tarmac path, cupped my filthy little hands and prayed to god. "please. god. let me reunite with my mother. let me see her one last time. let me be with her forever."

hope rekindled. a surge of hope and faith permeated through my body. i am focused. i am determined. i am kyle. hopkins. i am your proud son, mum.

up in the distance. smoke plumes rose from the ground. i ran closer to get a better view. it was a half track. i'd better be off away from those damn nazi fascists. but something changed my mind. a girl, about my age was abused by the nazi soldiers. she was being kicked about, and the one thing that disgusts me most. the soldiers spitted on her. she was being treated like a rag doll.

i had to do something.
i hid behind the trees.
silently like a ninja.
i "hopped" from one tree to another.
soon, i was behind a tree near to the half track.
the girl screamed for help.

"what am i going to do?"

P.S this is the continuation from Kyle.Hopkins diary. earlier i said that i won't continue the story. but i had the urge and motivation to continue the story. so what you've just read is my new work on Kyle.Hopkins. this is going to be my ongoing story in my blog. just to express my creative side. hope all of you like it =)

now im off to school! see ya!

gonna post mega & mini chronicles chp 3 in the afternoon.

better catch it ya? =)

mother teresa

2007-09-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

she was one of the greatest woman in history.
she was revered as the mother of all mothers.
she globe-trotted to help the sick and poor.
she was an angel to the eyes of many.
she was a nobel peace prize winner.
she was a woman of compassion.

most importantly,

she had spread the message of love and hope to the chaotic world we live in today.

she was none other than mother teresa.

(in loving memory. AUG 26 1910 - Sept 5 1997)

10 years on. you will not be forgotten.

It is not the magnitude of our actions but the amount of love that is put into them that matters. - Mother Teresa

quiz

2007-09-05T13:21:00.000+08:00

QUIZ!(passed from kyria.)

kyria. you got me. =P
i'm gonna do your tagging game right here. =)

1. (the person who tagged you is) -
hmm. let me trackback my tagboard. it would be MiNi! i choose you!

2. (your relationship with him/her is) -
a grey area. shan't talk more about it. mini's a special friend! =P
but we are the best domo buds ever! and we are the only citizens in monsterland!

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) -
an extrovert(outgoing). a VERY fun person to be with! very cute! a great leader. strong-willed!

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) -
made my day. mini has this special quality.
mini's cute antics just make my day more meaningful! =)

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) -
everything that mini had said to me ever since the day we domos first met. =)

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) -
what kind of question is this??
OK. kyria, you really got me!
i will take care of mini till the stars dont shine anymore. i will give mini a gureenteed sense of security so that other monsters won't provoke mini and love mini forever. not forgetting hugging mini when mini needs me. =)

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) -
nothing. mini is a perfect domo!

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) -
that won't ever happen. monsterland forbid it!

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) -
nothing. never will happen

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) -
give mini mega's 300+ rochers! and bring mini around singapore for shopping! (on mega) =)

11. (your overall impression of him/her is) -
mini has the potential to reach her goals and dreams in life.
and mini rocks!! DOMOs rock!

12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) -
urgh? i can't read their sophisticated minds....

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is) -
being there when anyone needs me and! thinking about the world & the universe!

14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) -
crying. not the hardcore type . tears will be shed when i listen to emotional songs and images depicting hate and racism on the media.

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is) -
mega & aeonex and me!

16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them) -
thank you!

there's still more questions but that will require more people to do this embarrassing quiz.

so i shall stop here and i'd like to address this fact to all of you that

mini and mega are just

friends! ok? =)

study session + M&MC

2007-09-04T20:18:00.000+08:00

STUDY SESSION @ WOODLANDS LIBRARY + MEGA & MINI CHRONICLES CHP 2

woke up really late this morning XDD

let me recall.

i woke up at
11AM!!!

and i was already late for today's study session. =PP
my study buddies were already there.
reached the library at about 12.30+
and i frantically tried to catch up with their work. =X
at first they sat on the cold hard floor.
but we managed to grab seats for ourselves.

wanna know how we got those seats?

let me tell ya. it's quite cute and amusing.

we've been eyeing a particular study table. a table occupied by a couple. o.O a lovey-dovey couple. let's talk about the amusing part ok?

OK. so they left the table and i saw a clique of teenaged girls escalating from the third floor.
they also eyed on the table we were zeroing [means targeting =)] at.
and so like a real life drama taking place,
i made a run for the table and at the other end,
the girls were zooming towards the table too.

WHO WAS THE WINNER?

me. of course.
i stretched my long arms ,
reached for the chair and placed my bag on it. =)
and so. they were laughing and smiling at me.
a gesture that for which they congratulated me for being the winner of the so called "race".

they left the area and looked at me and my friends. they smiled at me. again...
so they gave up. rode the escalators down.
and i looked at them again. i was so mean to them. didnt offer the seats to them =((
at first i thought they were angry at me.

TO MY SUPRISE
as the rode down the escalator. they SMILED and WAVED at me.
patches of bright red circles bloomed on my cheeks. =)

MORAL OF THE DAY

being mean can also make people's day.

haha. just joking =PP

anyway. i had a fruitful time there. 3 solid hours of cold hard PHYSICS!!!

OK GUYS!!

i've completed the second chapter of mega & mini chronicles!
let me give a brief description behind the second chapter of mega & mini chronicles.

it was a dark & starry night in monsterland. and it was also FRIDAY the 13TH!
ok let me stop here. and just view the comic for yourself =))

mega & mini chronicles

2007-09-03T14:36:00.000+08:00

woot! my creative juice had paid off!

you know. it's my dream to make my very own comic since young.
and guess what?

i've achieved that dream! XDD

with the boundless opportunity and power of photoshop, i've created an original comic series.
it took almost an hour to create the first chapter. but since i've created the template. creating other chapters would be a breeze. =))

the characters names are made up and originated from a special person. she's none other than MINI you!!!
thank you for inspiring me to create this comic.

CHARACTERS are:
MINI- Can't tell the details... =PP
MEGA- Depicted as me. the blogger.

Here's the first chapter of MEGA & MINI CHRONICLES!!

don't worry. there will loads more from where that came from. i'll create newer chapters of the comic if i have the time. in the meantime, stay tuned for the next chapter!! i've added my blog address and blog name to prevent any acts of plagiarism.

i've also created my blog logo. created using photoshop also. I LOVE PHOTOSHOP!!!!!

here's the logo.

P.S i need your comments on this. so i can improve on the comic. thank you!

BTW,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK SALEHA!!!! =))

endless rain

2007-09-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

"gajah mati meninggalkan tulang. manusia mati meninggalkan nama."

"bones will be the remains of the elephants after death. however, man will leave their name after death"
( it's a translation from the above text )

i just realised that my memories and thoughts would remain in this blog for eternity.
(it's because of someone)
unless a widespread destruction of the internet takes place in the future, my memories will be read by people of the future and they will learn of a boy. a boy who lived in the 21st century. a boy with hopes and dreams. a boy who wanted to make a difference in the world. and so he did. i hope so.

we don't live in this world forever. time passes by. it won't stop. along with it, we'll age. and one day, we'll know that our loved ones would be crying for us. because we have left them. and more importantly, they will remember our deeds and heartfelt actions that had deeply left a long-lasting impact in their hearts. because memories are the only way they can remember us. that is why the most powerful force in the world are memories next to love.

deep down, somewhere in your heart. you cry out to the person you have loved most. you long for that person to be with you. to relive the happy moments. and to embrace that person. you won't want to release that person. because you'll know that they will be gone forever from you. i know how it feels...

i feel for you

most of you would be wondering why i am writing this post. it's because of a chain of events that spurred me to write this.

firstly, i would like to give my condolences to Muzammil's father. he passed away a week ago. Muzammil- if you are reading this. i am truly sorry for your family's loss. no matter what happens, stay strong and show that you can do it by achieving excellent grades for you O' levels. insyallah

secondly, it is because of Hide (Matsumoto Hideto of X-Japan)
he was a great guitarist. a legend. millions of people look up to him. he was remembered as the pink spider. want to know why? he was a spunky and and outgoing individual who has the power to connect with the audience. he's not the lead singer but he just strum his guitar during performance and he's made millions cry during his performance. you dont need words to make people love you. your actions will.
we will remember you HIDE.(December 13 1964-May 2, 1998)

X-Japan. Endless Rain

I'm walking in the rain,
though everything seems to be hurting me for some reason.
There is only nothing.
Just kill me now ... as I roam forever.
Until I can forget your love.

To me sleep is a confusing, narcotic that only quiets the beating heart.
All my love seems to flow from my body like a heart felt memory.
I keep my love for you to myself.

*Endless rain, fall on my heart In this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness,

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by.
As I try to hold you,
you are vanishing before me.
You're just an illusion.
When I am awake, my tears have dried in the sands of sleep.
I'm a rose blooming in the desert.

It's a dream, I'm in love with you.
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over.
I can no longer hear the voice of your gentle words. Floating off tear stained walls.
So awakening in the morning, I'll move into my dreams ...until I can forget your love.

Endless rain, fall on my heart, in this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness.
Endless rain, let me stay a memory in your heart.
Let me take in your tears, take in your memories
(lyrics from X-Japan.Endless Rain. hear it. here)

it's one of X-japan's song that made me cry.
sorry if im a crybaby.
that's just who i am.

Kyle.Hopkins Chronicles

2007-09-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

mini you

2007-09-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

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To: MINI.

you know.

there are some things in this world that will make you smile upon the smallest things life can offer you.

at first. i thought you were just an ordinary girl.
you "pestered" me to do the littlest of things. =pp ( dont worry, i always like to help out! ) - remember the SL camp? hehe.
but i think it's cute of you though.
eventually, those little things start to grow
into something deep and meaningful

come to think of it
i've never imagined
that it would all boil down to this. -
[its like a small seed was planted in my heart
and it's grown into a huge oak tree
you were the seed.
the seed was mini.
you.]

over the short span of time.
the seed was in me was showered with freshwater-metaphor
( chocs to be exact =P )
a never-ending cascade of freshwater for you too
[ 300 + rochers left!! not including interests =(( ]
plus the radiant sunlight!!! =))
the seed will continue to grow.
because you've grown in my heart.

LONG LIVE DOMOS!!! =pp
you are more than ordinary. you are extraordinary!
and remember.
mega me can always accompany. =pp

From: MEGA.
Date: ( 1 Sept 07 )

IF UNDELIVERED, Please return this letter to the owner so he can eat this mail.

Dont ask why. Maybe he's hungry

THANK YOU

celebrations

2007-08-31T23:01:00.000+08:00

PICTURES! galore (teacher's day celebration)

lesser words and more pictures now!

5A hunks! =pp

akmal and me!

woah. guess who are we looking at?

i am the monster!

A! for 5A...LAME

not gays whatsoever

"raises hand"

MY EYES!!! green monsters!!

X - Japan

2007-08-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

SUGOI!

I am addicted to X-Japan's music! Seriously addicted! Their love ballads are awesome. Perfect for couples who are on cloud nine. Really! You've got to listen to them! Gotta love Hide's guitar solos!

Faithful 1980-1990 music listeners would find X-Japan's music on par with big band names such as Bon Jovi and Gun's and Roses.

X-Japan was a huge and successful band in japan. They had millions of devoted fans from all over the world. Unfortunately, the band had disbanded. One of the members of X-Japan, Hide(Guitarist) passed away in 1998 if im not wrong. However, the band would be reuniting after a decade behind the shadows.

I recommend all of you to listen to :

Endless Rain ( can be heard on my blog )
Tears
Forever Love
Longing Togireta Melody
Cruxify My Love
The Last Song

The stomp "meet the heroes" contest has come to an end and guess what?

i didnt win the contest. =ppp

technological advances

2007-08-29T12:10:00.000+08:00

technological advancements.

the human race will not survive one minute if there were no technological advancements to aid in the daily routines of man. we have become dependent and sometimes over-reliant on the advancements that , to my opinion are inferior to the human mind.

take for example, even the fastest supercomputer in the world herald as the god of all computer systems. The blue gene. with its rapid processing power of a whopping 280 teraflops of raw cpu power, it is capable of mapping out a real-time simulation of the world's weather pattern and even predicting the weather patterns of the future.

but even the most powerful computer i mentioned earlier, it cant even think of the simplest concept that man had envisioned such as emotions particularly love. believe it or not, the raw cpu processing power of the blue gene is equivelant to an ant. a small,puny, little ant.

having said that, what about the mainstream technology we have now. such examples are your crucial everyday essentials like your handphones, televisions and PCs. we depend heavily on them. we are under the control of technology. our lives are infused with technology. in my opinion, our lifestyle, or should i say the society is heavily influenced by technology. our attitudes change because of technology.

discursive essay

2007-08-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

prelim 2 has started.

my english teacher forbids anyone who does discursive, descriptive essays. she is in favor of us to do personal recounts. i hate doing personal recounts, i just don't have the desire and will to do it. but when i'm forced to, i will give my best to bring out the best in my personal recount essays.

i did'nt adhere to my teacher's advice to do personal recounts because i think that my forte lies in writing discursive essays. i did discursive essay for prelims 2 along with two more comrades who stood their ground to write what they feel is best for them. she is going to kill us if she knows about this. =P

all in all, only three students including me did the discursive essay.
"wealth is a good measure of success" what are your vie. that was the questions.

look at my previous posts. most of them are discursive topics. i like writing discursive essays.

this brings me to a particular incident last year after completing my english language N'level component. my teacher asked.

"so what question did you do for paper one?" she asked
"i did discursive" i replied
"you are going to fail your english! i didnt teach your that component before! why did you do it?" she asked again angrily
"because i felt like doing it" i replied with a frown on my face.

she walked away. hastily and angrily.

and when i got my N' level results.
i showed the result slip right in front of her eyes.

"teacher, i am sorry that you have underestimated me." and so i flaunted my A1 grade for english to her.

red moon rising

2007-08-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

24 hours from now.
The moon will be blood red.

There will be a special lunar eclipse whereby the moon will appear blood red. It will only be viewable in certain locations in the world. I think we can't view it in Singapore.

Fret not. Discovery Channel will be airing a live telecast of the red moon tomorrow. I certainly wont want to miss this opportunity.

For those who do not have cable television, there is also another channel for all of you to view it.It's viewable at NASA's website.

Here's the link
Contains information and timing of the eclipse. The live stream will be available tomorrow.Obviously.

http://sunearth.gsfc.nasa.gov/eclipse/LEmono/TLE2007Aug28/TLE2007Aug28.html

School uniform- love

2007-08-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

romancing in your sch uniform ? - A Stomp Topic.
It spurred me to write something about it.

here's my two cents.

Teenagers nowadays are exposed to different kinds of media that direct the idea that love has no boundaries. Let's see. Ever watched high school musical before? Its a heart-warming movie by the way. However, the flip side of it is that it sends out a message to teens and even young teens of the age 8-13 , that you have the right to love someone even if you are student of a school. What makes it more worse is that, students in Singapore do not wear their home clothes to school, they wear their school uniform.

Now this is the part where it gets confusing. Every human being has the right to love and to be loved. Its not a rule but it is an instinct, a core value that would bring happiness to anyone. To love someone is fine for students to me. As long as it brings happiness and a sense of security to the lovebirds, it is perfectly FINE. I dont quite know why grown ups see this as a shameful act. Maybe because they are worried that love might affect and degrade their child's acedemic performance? Well, they too have the right to think of such thoughts. And they should be. I've seen couples in their school uniform engaging in fruitful and meaningful activities such as studying together and even composing stories together. However, there are those who give love a bad name too. I dont want to dwell on such topics prior to that.

So , are school uniforms a hindrance for students to love?
Outrightly yes.

Here's what i posted at stomp.

There's nothing wrong romancing in your sch uniform. It's just that the society views it as a shameful act. Teachers prevent it because that kind of act might spur an influx of such acts in the public leading to an embarrassment for the school. The preventive measure is for the good of everyone especially the students.

We are still conservative.well, that's what i think.

So students , don your casual clothes before you want to be lovey-dovey. =PPPP

stomp it out

2007-08-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

stomp it out!

finally registered at STOMP forums. i've been viewing the forums for quite some time and i would say that the forum is quite beneficial. there are a myriad of different views and thoughts from the locals. their views are insightful and are deeply enriching. there are also contests for you to enter and win prizes!

your posts will require thinking skills and analytical processes to express your views. i would say that STOMP is a great medium for thinkers alike to brainstorm and just talk it out.

recently entered 2 contests organised by stomp.

1. Heroes contest

You don't need superpowers to get close to the stars of Heroes.

Win a chance to meet actors Masi Oka (Hiro Nakamura), Greg Grunberg (cop Matt Parkman), Ali Larter (Niki/Jessica Sanders) and Sendhil Ramamurthy (Mohinder Suresh) at a special Fan Event session!

Where: Central Court, VivoCity
When: 31 August 2007 (Friday)

Tell us, in 20 words or fewer, which is your favourite character on Heroes and why you want to meet him or her.

Contest ends 28 August 2007 (Tuesday). Act fast!

here's what i wrote.

Hiro! His power allows me to travel back and give a myriad of answers till i win the contest!

2. Words from the heart contest

Ever thought about the best phrase to express your feelings for someone?The sweetest message to truly express how you feel? Here’s your chance to do so on Hitchoo's “Words from the Heart" Contest!

How the contest works: Starting 31st July, submit on TalkBack a phrase to replace Hitchoo.com's "you made my day"

Entries close on 15th Sept, and from then to 31st Oct, STOMPers will vote online for their favourite phrase!

Top entries will win attractive prizes, and may replace the present ‘You made my day! for future Hitchoo cards!

Prizes: 1st (Exclusive dinner for 2 at The Cliff), 2nd (Golden Village Gold Class tickets for 2 with complimentary dinner), 3rd ($80 Pasta Brava dining voucher)

This contest is supported by the Speak Good English Movement.

coincidentally, i wrote a poem about confessing to someone in the near future, used that poem to enter the contest even though it asked for a phrase. =ppp. let's see what happens. =) if i win the contest, i'd bring that special someone for the free dinner. =P

STRAITS TIMES STOMP
http://www.stomp.com.sg/

5a photo.

2007-08-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

a photo tells a thousand words.

click image for larger view.

in touch article

2007-08-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

OK. my teacher asked me to write an article on a workshop i attended last june. and i was like "huh". i didnt even expect any of that. hmm. there must be some kind of news circulating around the staff room that i have a unique style of writing. hmm. maybe some of them are reading my blog? teachers, if you are reading my blog. feel free to tag! i dont mind. =)

here's a draft of my article that is going to be featured. In-touch magazine. took about 30 mins to come out with this.

Reflection is one of the key factors that make us grow. It is a way whereby we can know more about ourselves and in turn be a better person. Therefore, we will be able to think for ourselves and mature as a whole person.

The motivational workshop (high achievers training consultancy) that I attended right after the June holidays broadened my insight about reflection. I learnt the key to unlock the power of dreams. Dreams to me are the ignition to everything we do. It made me realise that in order to fulfill or achieve a goal, we have to make necessary sacrifices to attain our goals. The workshop taught us to believe in our goals by harnessing the power of focus. I was asked to set actual and realistic academic goals to succeed in our exams as step forward towards our dreams.

To me. Attitude is often perceived as a hindrance for us to succeed. The workshop effectively taught me that I can actually turn the tables and use it to guide me through the raging storm ( o level's ) and emerge unscathed from the onslaught of the storm after buckling up for a crash course on how attitude can affect our everyday life such as our studies or even maintaining relationships.

As the saying goes, time is of the essence for everyone. Let’s face the cold hard fact, We cannot time travel in the back to the past and change our fate or even slow down time. What’s done is done. Most students have the wrong perception that there is still much more time before our exams but in reality, they are wrong. They would procrastinate and let the world to continue to spin. The workshop woke the students up by laying out the countdown clock before the ‘O’ levels. The students gaped in shock to see that time was running out. Fortunately, the workshop had a devised a blueprint for us. They helped us to manage our time and prioritize and to eliminate every student’s enemy, procrastination.

All in all, the workshop was beneficial for students like me and alike. It has imparted the values of being a successful person in me. It taught me to be able to open up to new views and accept life as it is, as it was meant to be. Most importantly, it has taught me how to live life to the fullest.

Anuar Bin Tahir (5A)

rinoa

2007-08-19T21:33:00.001+08:00

[Poem]- Will you be my rinoa?

a thousand years alone
in an empty desolate world
is equivalent to death
the one special thing
that will give me life
is love

this desolate world
i will search high and low
cross the seven seas
climb the highest mountains
to find you
a place in my heart

the singularity point
we will meet at that
particular moment in time
for our hearts will beat as one
and that you will be my love

if the world could have told me everything
i might have found out what love is
If i could have known what was on my mind
I would have found you

I've never thought beyond time
I've never imagined the pictures of that lonely life
For now I will try to live for you and for me
I will try to live with love, with dreams,
and forever with memories
[aeonex]

this poem is exactly a portrayal of what i feel. i feel that my heart is yearning for a special someone. for now, it must remain empty.
this heart can be taken only after the O' levels
this special poem will be a gift for that special someone in the future.
will you be my rinoa?

A PERISHING POEM [EPILOGUE]

2007-08-18T23:38:00.000+08:00

A PERISHING POEM [EPILOGUE]

on a quiet fall of 2027'. the gentle wind lifted the fallen autumm leaves in the prairie. people from all walks of life carried out their daily routines. workaholics rushed towards their workplaces in the backdrop of a serene landscape. laid backs strewn all over the the park to enjoy its calm tranquility. a 4-legged loyal companion was leashed by its owner. a thunder boomed in the distance. following its instincts, it ran and tugged the leash hard. it brought the owner to a nearby shelter. a clear dome filled with people seeking shelter from the rain in the park.

it wont be soon before long the rain will wash away the sadness that engulfed RINOA. the dark clouds quickly loomed overhead. the thunders were punishing the park grounds. soon, puddles of water materialized all across the park. the weak autumm leaves gave way, the relentless wind unleashed its full onslaught on the innocent trees that had remained rooted to the ground for 30 years.

RINOA found a seat between a middle-aged woman clad in dark maroon overalls and a mysterious man dressed in a long black coat, a black hat and fingerless gloves. he had his head down casted and was reading a novel. RINOA glanced at the book as she took her seat. " a perishing poem" rinoa muttered as she pat her dog which was wagging its tail erratically.

a blue streak of light flashed infront of rinoa's eyes.

"1.2..3...ten ...boom" the thunder reverberated throughout the park as soon as rinoa finished counting to ten.

"i've no choice but to remain her till the rain stops." rinoa thought to herself rinoa tied her dog's leash to the foot of the seat.

she shut her eyes and let the world continue to spin as she went to sleep. she dwelled into her deepest memories and dreams as she entered into a deep sleep. images of a mysterious silhouette surfaced in her dream. she felt warm. the silhouette removed his dark coat and wrapped it around her.

"boom!" a loud thunder hit near the dome and woke rinoa up.

the dome was now empty except for the man that was sitting beside her. she noticed that the man had his black coat off and that she was wrapped with the man's coat. rinoa returned the coat back to him and thanked him. the man looked and smiled to her. the smile instantenously reminded her of her dream.

"you look familiar. may i know your name?" rinoa questioned the man with a puzzled look.

"my name is aeonex. nice to meet you" the man answered "you look cold and worn out. let's grab a hot cup of latte at cafe Gellarie. on me" aeonex grabbed her hand and both of them walked on the tarmac path that lead to Cafe Gellarie.

that is how both of them ended up together again. and this time. aeonex's got three years to spend his life with rinoa. p.s this is the final installment to my story A perishing peom. i've compiled all the previous 4 original chapters of A perishing poem below this post. i warn you. it is very lengthy. but it is for your convinience too! =)

A PERISHING POEM

2007-08-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

A PERISHING POEM

A Perishing Poem [1]

The rain gently tapped on the ground, puddles of mud mushroomed all over and the blades of grass drooping, dipping into the crimson river. It wasn’t a late hour but the once azure sky was an angry blue and letting out bolts of lightning. Clouds billowed across the sky in black swirls and the rain came pelting down like katanas. A single soul felt the unforgiving wrath of nature. Sat in a bench underneath a tall oak tree, a crying girl shares her sentiments with the rain. She shudders violently as she sat there, her black coat wrapped around her, her hands bunched in fists up the sleeves and her toes clenched. The strong gusts of wind blew her long blonde hair across her face. She was obscured from the cruel world. Behind the beautiful hair, she was Rinoa.

Rinoa wrapped her black coat tighter around her. She watched as her cold breath exited from her mouth before being blown away into the storm. " I wish my mum had been more understanding towards me, i wish this would end as soon as possible..." her voice trailed off as she was being thrown into a reverie. Her reveries turned into real nightmares as loud thunders reverberated throughout the park. She could do nothing but to witness earth being punished by the sky.

At the corner of her eye, she saw a shadowy silhouette of a man standing near a tree across the distance. The dark figure of a man walked towards the bench where Rinoa sat. She curled up and shivered, knowing how dangerous it was to be out here on her own, and with no passers-by to call out to.

The figure continued to walk towards her, and soon she saw a long black coat, a black hat and fingerless gloves, the person inside still hidden by the shadows. Light was cast briefly over his face from a lightening bolt and Rinoa saw a teenager around her own age, with long, wet, slightly curly hair looking at her. Taking his hand out of his pocket, he pushed his hair out of his eyes and spoke.

"May i share this humble seat with you? This spot seems to be sheltered from the rain"

The guy spoke politely with a smile. Rinoa shifted herself to the corner of her bench. Rinoa stared at the mysterious man and conjured up every sin a man can do to her. Her heart raced to a pace she had never experienced before.

"Dont worry. I am not those type of guys" he said it convincingly. The mysterious man stared at the gloomy skies and recited a poem :

as dark as the gloomy skies
no one can light my dark path
as heavy my heart is
no one can fill it with love

As though the storm had taken a break, the silence was replaced by a soft giggle. The giggle was alien to Rinoa. The last time she remembered laughing was the time she spent her days with her parents.

Why did you giggle?" asked the guy. "

You are funny" replied Rinoa with an angelic smile on her face.

"Hmm. What are you doing alone here and whats your name?" questioned the guy

"I wanted to be alone. My name is Rinoa." Her smile turned into a frown as she answered the guy.

The guy offered his black coat willingly and wrapped it around Rinoa's frail body. Rinoa's eyes lighted up. Her heart seemed to beat normally now.

"So as seen as though I let you share my tree, may I know your name too? Rinoa asked, not really looking at him.

"Well, you can call me Aeonex. Funny it may sound. But, you will get used to it." Aeonex took off his black hat and combed his hair back.

A streak of lightning struck in the distance.

"Do you like this kind of weather?" Aeonex leant back and asked her the question. Rinoa shrugged her shoulders and stared intensely into the distance.

"I love this weather! But when you are crying with the rain...things can really be quite depressing." she explained.

"Well, the rain seem be stopping. Maybe, when you stopped crying, the rain stopped too!" Aeonex spoke quietly and let out a chuckle.

"I guess so.." Rinoa replied.

The dark patches in the skies slowly drifted away into the distance. Rays of light penetrate the clouds. The sunlight illuminate the wet landscape.

"You look cold.. Erm, would you like to go for a drink or something? Treat is on me?'" Aeonex asked lightly, trying not to sound forward.

Rinoa hesitated and then did some quick thinking.

"That would be nice" she answered with a faint smile on her face.

Both of them got up from the bench and walked side by side along the treaded path. The sun loomed overhead and the butterflies were out to play. Being with aeonex made rinoa's worries dissipate into thin air. As they walked, she took this chance to properly look at him in the eyes, and saw how sincere he was. Aeonex caught her looking and smiled sweetly. Rinoa turned away embarrassed, but as she walked she knew Aeonex was still looking at her out of the corner of his eye. Butterflies danced in her stomach as she walked side by side with Aeonex.

A Perishing Poem [2]

Breathing only made the agonizing silence louder. Echoing through the deserted tunnels in Rinoa's mind, the poem replayed in her mind over and over again. as dark as the gloomy skies no one can light my dark path as heavy my heart is no one can fill it with love Rinoa looked into the eyes of the accidental stranger. It was only moments ago the mysterious person donned in black suit sent shivers down her cold spine (literally). Now, her heart skipped a beat everytime aeonex looked into her brown almond-shaped eyes. As they walked along the wet treaded path of desolation, a vivid array of colours hung in the sky. Look! Isnt that rainbow just amazing! rinoa exclaimed and extended her right arm to the sky, towards the rainbow.

"It is very beautiful. The rainbow must have been created by your clear tear drops." I presume you are ecstatic right now? Aeonex replied as he reached out to Rinoa's extended arm and held her hands.

"I must be." She answered bashfully and rosy patches appeared on her face. Rinoa's mind swirled with burning questions. She wondered how Aeonex could have read her mind. She gripped Aeonex hands tightly, a complete stranger.

"Hold my hand tightly if it makes you feel better. Let go of all of your worries and problems as you squeeze my hand." Aeonex looked straight, not laying a single look at Rinoa

"May i know who you really are?" Rinoa studied Aeonex's peculiar fashion sense as she asked the question.

"Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate." Aeonex explained to rinoa

"So you are an actor?" Rinoa asked "Only if your mind perceive it, I can't really tell who i am till we've finished having a drink at Cafe Gellarie. Let's race there! Last one is a donkey!"

Aeonex couldnt finish the sentence as Rinoa had left a trail of dust in the air. Aeonex looked at his watch.

It showed.
Day: Monday
Time: 18:46
Time remaining: 1 teracycle. [ 1 hour ]

The sun was setting in the azure sky. A faint crescent moon was visible to the naked eye. Darkness encompassed the wet landscape. Time was running out...

A Perishing Poem [3]

The darkened veil blanketed the sky. The faint crescent moon sat in the dark midnight sky. Stars speckled the vast blanket of the night sky. Each one shimmered and shined and smiled at both Aeonex and Rinoa as they entered the Cafe. The Cafe was cosy, with grungy red painted walls and a dark wooden bar in the centre. Rinoa walked over to her favourite unoccupied corner with the big lumpy sofa and collapsed on it. Aeonex followed laughing, taking his black hat off and dropping down next to Rinoa. Rinoa began to take off Aeonex's coat too returned it to him. The cold draft in the Cafe brought them close together. They sat side by side. In front of them, the tables were filled with lovebirds proclaiming their love to the special one who they would be spending their lives with. It gave a tingling sense to the both of them; particularly Aeonex.

A strong smell of Cassis diffused throughout the Cafe. "Right what would ma'am like to drink?" Aeonex asked while he bowed to rinoa

" I'll have what ever the sir is having," Rinoa played along. Aeonex walked over to the countertop as Rinoa sat on the sofa looking at aeonex.

Aeonex ordered two lemonades and stood leaning on the countertop looking through the mirror at Rinoa. He couldn’t believe he has actually met her in the park and here he was having a drink with Rinoa. He took out his locket and looked at a picture of a lady in her mid 30s with blonde hair and a radiant smile.

"She has the same smile. Not hampered by the sands of time. It's still the same " whispered Aeonex.

"Lemonade!!" Aeonex said carrying the two glasses back and sitting down, handing a glass to Rinoa .

"Cheers!" Rinoa laughs and gulps deeply "I have to tell you something. Something that will change your life." Aeonex asks as he placed his glass down on the old wooden table that lay before them.

"Sure. As long as the last drop of lemonade hits my stomach" Rinoa leant back on the soft sofa, chuckles and gulps deeply.

"We can talk about it later...." aeonex voiced trailed off as he looked at his watch. Aeonex's heart raced. Beads of sweat quickly formed on his forehead. Calm and collected on the surface, storms raged inside his mind and his heart. He looked at his watch again.

Day: Monday
Time: 19:10
Time remaining:0.34 teracycle [ 34 mins]

The nervous look on aeonex caught rinoa's attention. He needed a way to divert the attention.

"So you lived here all your life?" That question lingered in Aeonex mind since he met Rinoa and finally questioned her

"Yeah!.Home sweet home. Born and raised here.

" Rinoa answered "You've been stuck here since you were born?" Aeonex frowned

"Only through a television, I'd like to get out and go places. But things are difficult." Rinoa smiles weakly.

"Oh, sorry," Aeonex looks at the parquet floor. "Hey, no worries. To put it simple, I’m from a complicated background, girls like me are destined to stay like this, in the same old town, marry that one guy and let him ruin your life" Rinoa laughs sadly.

"That’s why I was in the park on my own, sometimes I’ve just got to get away." Rinoa placed her fingers on her chin and looked up at the ceiling.

"Well what you waiting for?" Aeonex asks.

"I don't know. My prince will come and sweep me off my feet and piggy back me away to some far off land and we'll live happily ever after!" they both laughed.

"Your poem. It deeply touched my heart. Where did you get the inspiration to write such a poem?" Rinoa changed the subject.

"It was not created by me. It was created by someone. Close to my heart." Aeonex frowned

"I'll tell you when the time is right" Aeonex added.

Their talk carried around subject after subject. The minutes pass by and soon he will be leaving her. Aeonex knew all to well that "ever after" is not in his dictionary. He knew that word will be removed from his dictionary; only after he tells the things he needed to tell Rinoa before he go.

He checked his watch:
Day: Monday
Time: 19:34
Time Remaining: 0.10 teracycles [10mins]

"Can we talk outside?" aeonex smiles faintly "Yeah sure!" rinoa replied willingly Time was running out.....

A perishing poem [4]

The countdown begins. Silent in the night. The trees in the park danced in the twilight. Lovebirds held hands tightly and strolled along the tarmac path. A grey beacon of hope shone for Rinoa from above but, the full moon loomed overhead, as big as the sun, signalled a warning for Aeonex.

Day: Monday
Time: 19.34
Time remaining: 0.10. [10 minutes]0.10 Teracyles.

The lonely, abondoned seat that both of them first met in the park was now accompanied by brightly-lit lamp post. The cold breeze lifted Rinoa's soft, silky jet black hair. She leaned against the railings of the cafe's balcony. She rested her right arm on the cold steel railing. Her right arm, placed below her chin supported her heavy head as she looked up to the night sky. "Boo! here i am. Under the night sky with you on this perfect night" aeonex whispered to rinoa's ears. Rinoa averted her eyes away from the desolate sky and looked into aeonex's eyes filled with hope and joy. On impulse, Rinoa reached out for aeonex's hands.

"Tell me again. Why are we here?" rinoa asked , she let out a faint smile accompanied by a strong grip on aeonex's hands. Time seemed to slow down.

"As i have promised you. I will tell you why i am here and will be gone in a matter of minutes" aeonex whispered to rinoa's ears as he stood nearer to rinoa.

"Go on." rinoa replied and hugged aeonex. Rosy cheeks blossomed but aeonex did'nt notice it.

Day: Monday
Time: 19.39
Time remaining: 0.05 teracycles. [ 5 minutes left ]

"Thank you for loving me. I want to let you know that i'll always love you forever even though the sands of time will dissipate into thin air because my love for you will never end. We will meet again in the future but you won't remember this destined meeting. From the bottom of my heart. No.-From my whole heart, i truly love you." aeonex let out an unreserved confession to Rinoa.

By now, aeonex had realised that rinoa's heart was racing. Soon, he felt a tinge of coldness on his shoulder. It was a teardrop. A teardrop from Rinoa."i don't know you..that much........... but in my heart, i feel ......that my heart is calling out your name. it feels like i've known you.... for years. i feel like..... i am part of.... you. it feels like you..... complete me. it feels like i.......................love you." rinoa whispered , aeonex wiped away her tears.

Heaven sent a shooting star. The star cuts across the dark sky. Aeonex's and rinoa's eyes looked up to the sky again. A shower of shooting stars rained from above. Without hesitation, aeonex planted a kiss on rinoa's forehead. As a gesture of kindness, she too planted a kiss on aeonex's cheek.

"That was a kiss that you'll remember. I have to go now." aeonex whispered again, and moved away, slowly, from Rinoa.

Day: Monday
Time: 19.43
Time remaining: 0.01 teracycles [ 1 minute left ]

That kiss reignited memories of his wife. He remembered the last kiss he gave to his wife before she passed away 5 years after they were married. He remembered his wife, Rinoa's last wordsas dark as the gloomy skiesno one can light my dark pathas heavy my heart isno one can fill it with love. He released rinoa's hands with a heavy heart. He could'nt bear to walk away from her but had to.

Aeonex walked towards the Cafe doors and entered. Ironically the entrance was his exit.

"Wait!, I didnt get your number. Where do you live? I really want to see you again." only the silence answered rinoa.

Before the cafe doors were closed, a slip of paper dropped slowly to the ground. Rinoa picked up the mysterious note and her mouth was agape. It was a scribble of her own writing -

as dark as the gloomy skies
no one can light my dark path
as heavy my heart is
no one can fill it with love...only you. aeonex

Confused thoughts swirled inside her mind. The only path for her to was to walk towards the entrance. She opened the door. Her eyes scanned for Aeonex. Her eyes failed her expectations. Aeonex was gone .The only thing that remained of Aeonex was the note. She flipped the note and read the underside.

Time. A simple concept to man yet hard to master it. It can fulfill your wishes. To go back, to leap forward and to stop it was not the answer i seeked. What i seeked was you. My love.

THE END

This is the compiled version and finalized version of A Perishing Poem. A bit long and you might find it boring. =P Convenient for those who have not read the previous chapters. I apologize if there are grammatical errors in the story. Thanks for reading!

idea.

2007-08-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

something that i was thinking about. and decided to pen my thoughts down.

everyone in this world, young or old need to be showered with never-ending love. the young especially need to be given extra care and attention because they are not exposed to the harsh world yet. they need to be embedded with proper values and principles that will prepare them for the future.

the ones who should mould the young would be the parents. they are the sole responsibilty of maintaining the well-being of the young ones. the young ones will look up to their parents because they view their parents as role models. a role model that should live up to its name. but it is quite disheartening to see that some of the parents in this fast-pace society are neglecting the "role model" status.

in a world that money talks, people presumebly working adults are motivated by money. they would sacrifise anything to earn money. some working adults who have children in their homes are often labelled as the 2nd priority. the first priority is of course- money. to cover the "loophole"( flaw that can hinder the working adults from working [concept] ) that these working adults would resort to hiring maids to replace their responsibilities as parents.

with that being said. the heavy weight of responsibility is lifted away from their shoulders. but. it brings new and undesirable consequences. the chidlren who are developing, are taken care by the maids. this is not a good idea because the children might develop a bond with the maids. the children would slowly lose their love for the parents because the parents are not spending enough time for the kids. instead the maid grabbed that golden oppurtunity and thus they spend more time with the kids.

the maids wont be able to deliver an impact that is significant enough for the kids. maids are'nt the ones who should instill moral values within the kids. it is the parents job to do so. as most of them are working in this competitive society, which parent would want to give up their dream job that they have been chasing all along. this will create a new trend in the future and it is going to be worse. look at our society right now, even the schools are getting more competitive.i fear it will generate a never ending cycle of negligence towards kids in the future.

i doubt it will because we still have compassion and love in us. no matter what -aeonex

transformation

2007-08-14T20:00:00.001+08:00

sunlight outshone the dark grey hue. the rain stopped. the sun emerged from behind the dark clouds.

a simple transition. a remarkable transformation.

walked back home today and saw an elderly man with a receding hairline playing badminton with a healthy young boy who was practically trashing the poor old man. i reckon they're kin-related.

they're generations apart. but the transformation the young boy will undergo will be of no difference to his grandfather.

TRANSFORMATION.
its a strong word. a process that can be defined and understood in many forms. people change. living things evolve. seasons change. perceptions change. society changes.

transformation is undoubtedly necessary for everyone. it starts right in the beginning of our lives. from a zygote, to a foetus and lastly , a baby. and there's of course puberty. whereby young teenagers will experience a transition from adolescence to a mature young adult. let's talk about what goes inside the mind. the mind will undergo an amazing transformation. the brain or rather, we(young adults) will appreciate life more as we will realize that the world is an amazing place and there's a whole lot meaning to life. we will start to think. think about ourselves. what we will be doing in the future. think about our looks. our friends and our family.

your (young adults) mind will be bombarded with thoughts(sometimes negative)- you will be easily frustrated and unfocused in any work you do because these thoughts will bother you over time and time. so how to do we (young adults) overcome this problem?

firstly, relax. stop whatever you are doing. take a deep breath. let your soul take over. breathe slowly and close your eyes. layman terms- meditate.

secondly, collect your thoughts and remember your "happy times". this is a great boost to regain confidence and morale.

thirdly, you're good to go. ( for me. i would shout GO GO GO! after going through the second process ) - even though i sound like an idiot.

here's an episode of my life.

i have undergone significant changes in my life.
i still remember being so naive and full of nonsense in my primary school years. especially during my P6 days. i used to hang out with my friends ( i chose the wrong company ) , loiter around HDB blocks and often played computer games at a nearby LAN shop close to my school. i was wasting time and i neglected my studies. my P6 prelim results reflected my character. my whole world tumbled. i lost confidence and i continued to practice this habit even though my PSLE was round the corner. i didnt even study a single bit for my PSLE. i did my PSLE only by recollecting what my teachers taught me. i truly am grateful for all of you. and i am sorry i let of you down as i didnt even reach 1% of my potential. thank you for believing in me. now i realise what all of you saw in me.
my aggregate was around 180+. that's how i got into kranji.

i realised that i wont repeat this mistake the moment i stepped into kranji. that was the spark of my transformation. the spark bolstered my self-confidence through the first few years in kranji. things slowly pick up for me. i have a great circle of friends who are willing to sacrifise themselves in the name of friendship. to name a few (Akmal-10 yrs and still strong, zman- the cool dude, haziq-if we collaborate and share ideas, we can blow your mind)

i soon realised that what i've done had brought about great improvements for myself. but this could have not have happened if my friends were'nt there for me.

moving on. 2007. a lot of transformation happened this year. Linkin Park evolved and produced a different sound from their previous albums. The world is now aware of the dangers of ozone layer depletion and global warming. and of course. who wouldnt forget- TRANSFORMERS!! (just joking) =P

this year has also been a great transformation for me too. my thoughts and outlook towards this world has broaden to an unimaginable scale. some say i've transformed from a "guai" boy to a tough cookie. yeah. yes i have transformed. im not going to let anyone step on my head again. i'll unleashed my full fury if anyone provokes me. diplomatically of course. if you want to take it on the battlefield. i'd gladly seize the oppurtunity for you will be plundered by the full force of my "weapons of mass destruction"

So how do i attack the remaining 5 O' level papers? Let's use the antimatter! Pulverize it till there's no atom remains of the papers. oh and yeah. i got A2 for my O level malay language paper. =)

1 dont know how i've reached that capacity but i clearly know that the spark for this great transformation was from someone. she might not know that she has helped me but i owe it all to her.

P.S :
i've changed my blog name to [aeonex. a synapse away]
synapse is a junction between two nerve cells. it needs an electric impulse to work.
and that's exactly how my blog works. i need a spark to work. your spark

aeonex desktop v2

2007-08-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

a snapshot of my desktop.

Specifications:

Pentium Core2Duo 3.2GHz
671T-M ECS Motherboard
ASUS 256MB Geforce EN8500GT Silent
1GB DDR2 Kingston
Realtek HD Audio
DVD Multi-Combo Drive
Win XP Pro

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memoirs

2007-08-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

prior to the post that i have posted yesterday. I've been deluded by my own thoughts. there is a much more powerful force than power. it's a force that can change for the better, improved version of you. it has an astounding effect that at a certain point, it is indescribable. it has a long lasting effect that bonds with you over time. and you will come to appreciate it. and one day, you will be thankful of it. i'm talking about memories.

i was surfing BBC's news network and came across this article :http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/6940962.stm

that article reminded me of a movie entitled dragonheart. i fondly remember only the last part of the movie when the dragon dies in the end and became part of the star constellations. that old movie got me thinking about memories. memories. what are they?

to me. memories are the combustion to our dreams. fuel to our purpose in life. and happiness whenever we are feeling blue. because whenever we are caught up in a sticky situation, we tend to remember what we've done in the past and analyze our mistakes. and after that, we try our best to overcome that hurdle we once tried to cross over again. until we've crossed it. that's part one. memories give us the upperhand. and to say it simply in layman's term, it's called experience.

part duex. memories are catalyst to our emotions. memories can make us smile and can even drown us in our own pool of tears. think of the happy times when you and your loved ones. i bet you are smiling right now. and now every good has its own bad. think of the time when your loved one is taken away from you. you are left alone in this world. no one to talk to. because the one that you love most is gone. they are not in this 3D, breathing world anymore but they are definitely living inside you. so, remember them as much as you can so that they won't disappear forever.

keep them in your memories.

my path has lost direction. so now you're gone and i was wrong. i never knew what it was like to be alone on a lonely day. the stars tonight will be my guardian angels because i know you are there. somewhere in the velvet sky.

power

2007-08-11T11:55:00.000+08:00

(MSN VIRUS REMOVAL STEPS- 2 posts below current)

He's a stranger to none, And a vision to some, He can never get enough, Get enough of the world.

there is an invisible force in the world. a force capable of influencing, controlling and has the ability to obtain supremacy in the face of the world. this force is commonly known popularly as POWER.

yes. POWER you've seen it. it has shown us how tempting and seductive POWER is to man. POWER can change people. it can change them whole. It's like a parasite that clings on your head at first, once you've taste its true power, you can never let it go. the parasite will take over your head. blinding your judgement and choices. and once it has taken your head, it will take your soul. the parasite will bind deep into your soul and it will turn you into a monster. and after that, you can never revert back. trust me. i've seen it and it has taken over my friend.my long lost friend.

let me discuss power in-depth.

it's true colours are depicted out rightly in world wars. POWER. it's brought bloodshed among the innocent, the fallen and the brave. a simple concept called POWER caused an abrupt stop to people's lives. it shattered the dreams of young ones. the hopes of the working people. it has also shattered love into smithereens. we can never erase the concept of power for it binds us all and if not handled properly, complications will arise. complications like greed, hate , and the worst of all, war.

ideology is one of the common factors in the rise of supremacy. the ideology can brainwash minds of the weak and the ignorant. these ideologies act like tentacles of a giant octupus. these tentacles will grip them and eventually break them down and make them a slave of the octupus. these people will adhere to the ideology and will do anything in support of its power. when the ideology grabs hold of a society. it can control them. and therefore asking the society to spread its influence. the influence can be diplomatic but violence is inevitable.

so how do we prevent power from swallowing us whole?
power is meant to be protected. that is why the world( i cant explain this in depth because it might confuse you guys) does whatever it can to prevent it from being controlled by the wrong hands. there are "guardians"(meant to be a metaphor) protecting power. these guardians are hidden among the shadows of the norm.(i cant elaborate more on this) if you guys have ever watched power rangers or any of those characters in costumes, there is a link to these guardians( but then again it's a metaphor ) if you guys are confused about what i am trying to reach out to all of you, i'm doing this purposely.

because what im trying to do is to make all of you think.

-aeonex

NDP 07

2007-08-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

(MSN VIRUS REMOVAL STEPS- below current post)

The bay beats as one. The beat sent ripples across the singapore river. The waves danced gracefully below the veiled skyline. Hearts thumped in unison. In one final blow, the crowd roared. They've let it all out. Their dreams. Their hopes. The possibilities. Because we believed, we believe we can achieve more. Because we are ONE. We are Singapore.

it's enlightening to see people of different races and social backgrounds bonding together under the singapore sky. all the way from marina square to the esplanade bridge, zman and i made our way through the throngs of people.

our first stop was at Marina square where you can see a phenomenon that can only happen on National day. the whole place was choke full of people. we practically had to squeeze our way through to get to a desired area to take photos and sightseeing of the RSAF's Apache and F-16 Falcons. it's a pity and a disappointment that the f-15's were'nt rolled out to display their awesome might and awe. maybe in the future, i will pilot one of the F-15 eagles and leave a jet trail that portrays "the knights of the skies". =P or maybe fly under the benjamin sheares bridge! =P

here's the video of the F-16 flyby that i took.

the view at Marina square was'nt exhilarating enough and the sky view was obstructed by trees. so, we pondered for awhile and made a final decision to walk all the way from Marina square to the esplanade bridge. i would say it was a great feat as we really had to squeeze to make our way there. once we've reached there, the bridge was FULL! and there was zero possibility of us getting a place on the bridge.

and yeah, i forgot to mention that Zman was jealous of me. you know why? he said that there were a lot of girls who looked and stared at me. and guys were covering their girlfriends eyes from me. and the funny thing was i didnt notice any of it because i was not wearing glasses. heh. but what do i care. i care about personalities, not looks.

en route to the esplanade bridge, there were a lot of hooligans shouting and screaming at their top of their lungs. and they were inciting
racism, i heard one of them said to a foreigner " where's your country when your country celebrates national day and dont congest the area"
the foreigner just smiled.

i just cant accept this kind of behaviour from people. to be honest, i really hate people who incite racism. this is a sensitive and grey area where i leave it for you to think about. i dont know about you, but i just want to do justice when people fight or provoke each other. maybe that's why i was labelled as the PEACEMAKER from my friends and cousins. this is also evident from the DISC test.

luckily, there was an alternative, the Padang was just beside the esplanade bridge. it was packed too but there were still pocket of spaces for us. we manage to get a place in the heart of the Padang. dont believe me? REALLY! . So, it was already nightfall by then and the crowd was getting ready to face the full fury of the fireworks. and i'd say they got it right. the fireworks let out big bangs that reverberated throughout the CBD area.

here's the video of the fireworks that i took.

overall, this year's national day is not as exciting as before. maybe it's because of the new environment. we just need time to adjust ourselves.

MSN Messenger Virus

2007-08-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

Red Alert!!!

I've noticed most of the MSN users have caught the malicious, annoying virus. Here's a way to get rid of the virus.

On Msn/Windows live messenger, if you find a contact telling you "Check out my nice photo album" or "Here are my very secret pictures for you" or anything similar, then sends you a file called "photoalbum2007.zip" or "myphotoalbum.zip" or similars, DO NOT ACCEPT!!

If you accept then launch the file, you'll catch the virus. And immediately you'll find the messenger automatically sends the virus to all of your online contacts. It doesn't stop, it keeps sending and sending every while and then. And recently it somehow started to send inappropriate messages to contacts instead of just promoting itself in the form of a photo album

If your PC has already been infected, try the following removal tools:

1. Download Ad-aware 2007 Free Edition OR Spybot Search&Destroy. Both are free and will locate the virus and hopefully eliminate the threat that is on your PC. You can also download AVG Antivirus. And it's free. Just update the core system of the antivirus and let it scan your PC.

-Ad-aware 2007 : http://www.download.com/3000-2144-10045910.html

-Spybot Search&Destroy : http://www.safer-networking.org/en/index.html

- AVG antivirus : http://free.grisoft.com/

( I do not know whether these programs might help you in eliminating the virus. Just hope it will work )

2.Incase the zip contains a file with extension "PIF" you'll have to try this, or this Incase the zip contains a file with extension "SCR" delete the following files and folders if found:

c:\install\ghost.exe
c:\install\install.exe
c:\install\credits.cmd
c:\documents and settings\\My Documents\My Received Files\MyAlbum2007
c:\documents and settings\\My Documents\My Received Files\photo album-2007.scr %windir%\myalbum2007.zip

You will not be able to delete %system%\sysprinters.dll, so you'll have to remove from Safe Mode.
IF you don't know how to go to SAFE MODE. Please do not attempt to do so because it is complicated and can mess up your PC.

A perishing poem [4]

2007-08-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

A perishing poem [4]

The countdown begins.

Silent in the night. The trees in the park danced in the twilight. Lovebirds held hands tightly and strolled along the tarmac path. A grey beacon of hope shone for Rinoa from above but, the full moon loomed overhead, as big as the sun, signalled a warning for Aeonex.

Day: Monday
Time: 19.34
Time remaining: 0.10. [10 minutes]

0.10 Teracyles.

The lonely, abondoned seat that both of them first met in the park was now accompanied by brightly-lit lamp post.

The cold breeze lifted Rinoa's soft, silky jet black hair. She leaned against the railings of the cafe's balcony. She rested her right arm on the cold steel railing. Her right arm, placed below her chin supported her heavy head as she looked up to the night sky.

"Boo! here i am. Under the night sky with you on this perfect night" aeonex whispered to rinoa's ears.

Rinoa averted her eyes away from the desolate sky and looked into aeonex's eyes filled with hope and joy. On impulse, Rinoa reached out for aeonex's hands.

"Tell me again. Why are we here?" rinoa asked , she let out a faint smile accompanied by a strong grip on aeonex's hands.

Time seemed to slow down.

"As i have promised you. I will tell you why i am here and will be gone in a matter of minutes" aeonex whispered to rinoa's ears as he stood nearer to rinoa.

"Go on." rinoa replied and hugged aeonex. Rosy cheeks blossomed but aeonex did'nt notice it.

Day: Monday
Time: 19.39
Time remaining: 0.05 teracycles. [ 5 minutes left ]

"Thank you for loving me. I want to let you know that i'll always love you forever even though the sands of time will dissipate into thin air because my love for you will never end. We will meet again in the future but you won't remember this destined meeting. From the bottom of my heart. No.-From my whole heart, i truly love you." aeonex let out an unreserved confession to Rinoa.

By now, aeonex had realised that rinoa's heart was racing. Soon, he felt a tinge of coldness on his shoulder. It was a teardrop. A teardrop from Rinoa.

"i don't know you..that much........... but in my heart, i feel ......that my heart is calling out your name. it feels like i've known you.... for years. i feel like..... i am part of.... you. it feels like you..... complete me. it feels like i.......................love you." rinoa whispered , aeonex wiped away her tears.

Heaven sent a shooting star. The star cuts across the dark sky. Aeonex's and rinoa's eyes looked up to the sky again. A shower of shooting stars rained from above. Without hesitation, aeonex planted a kiss on rinoa's forehead. As a gesture of kindness, she too planted a kiss on aeonex's cheek.

"That was a kiss that you'll remember. I have to go now." aeonex whispered again, and moved away, slowly, from Rinoa.

Day: Monday
Time: 19.43
Time remaining: 0.01 teracycles [ 1 minute left ]

That kiss reignited memories of his wife. He remembered the last kiss he gave to his wife before she passed away 5 years after they were married. He remembered his wife, Rinoa's last words

as dark as the gloomy skies

no one can light my dark path

as heavy my heart is

no one can fill it with love

He released rinoa's hands with a heavy heart. He could'nt bear to walk away from her but had to. Aeonex walked towards the Cafe doors and entered. Ironically the entrance was his exit.

"Wait!, I didnt get your number. Where do you live? I really want to see you again." only the silence answered rinoa.

Before the cafe doors were closed, a slip of paper dropped slowly to the ground. Rinoa picked up the mysterious note and her mouth was agape. It was a scribble of her own writing -

as dark as the gloomy skies
no one can light my dark path
as heavy my heart is
no one can fill it with love .. only you. aeonex

Confused thoughts swirled inside her mind. The only path for her to was to walk towards the entrance. She opened the door. Her eyes scanned for Aeonex. Her eyes failed her expectations. Aeonex was gone.

The only thing that remained of Aeonex was the note. She flipped the note and read the underside.

Time. A simple concept to man yet hard to master it. It can fulfill your wishes. To go back, to leap forward and to stop it was not the answer i seeked. What i seeked was you. My love.

THE END

P.S

For those who are confused over my complicated story. Here's the synopsis of the whole story. The overall story is a science fiction, love story. Aeonex is actually a time traveller who travels back in time to his teenage years to meet his future wife, Rinoa who passed away 5 years after they were married.

I really hate endings. I'm not good in writing story endings. I hope this will make do. =p
Anyway,I hope you enjoyed reading the story. And Thank You!

If anyone of you missed out the last 3 chapters, they are available in my archives in the April and May section.

little things give you away

2007-08-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

little things give you away.

"when someone helps you, you try your best to repay the help that he/she has given. even though he/she might reject the help you have offered. it does'nt matter which race or religion he/she may belong to because we are all the same" - my mum

these words are engraved in my heart and soul. i highly regard these words of advice as a safe ticket to maintain good relations with anyone- friends, family Even so, strangers too (it may be the spark of a new relationship with a stranger)

i urge the public to help people whenever they are in need but do it unconditionally, because what you give is better than what you receive. that's the fundamental rule when helping people. don't expect anything in return. the sincere heart is all that matters. we all have a heart for others, but do we even utilize it? what is hindering most if not some of us to help others. is it because you'll have more burden or problems? yes?

the answer is otherwise.

for starters, there may be a huge block of concrete that's holding you back when you want to help a person in need. (because beginnings are always difficult). dont be afraid. just go out there. help them. you already have the heart to help the person, so what 's stopping you again? if you have the heart, then have the capacity to help them.things will pick up when you offer your help, you'll find it easy and natural. because we are here on earth to help one another.

not to abuse the help and turn the tables.

some of you may already know what i am referring to. for those of you who guess it correctly, im glad for you. keep on reading newspapers. straits times especially.

for those who have no idea what i talking about. its about the hostage situation at Afghanistan. 22 South Koreans kidnapped by the Taliban. and what's more shocking? the south koreans are aid workers. aid workers who provide help and medication to the wounded and sick in the middle east. and they do it unconditionally. because they know that there are those out there (innocent people) who are crying out loud in pain because of the insurgent's attacks. is'nt it ironic. innocent people who came from S.Korea , extending their hands to the (innocent) Afghans but instead were kidnapped and kept hostage by the (insurgents) Afghans.

for crying out loud. they were just trying to help the people there. why dont the insurgents even have a heart for the S.Korean aid workers? why kill the innocent who cant fight back? cowards?

WHY?

religion. the taliban will not tolerate other religion other than islam. but what is this perspective of thinking? it is a childish thinking. they have misinterprated or abused the true islam way. and this is sad because it portrays a bad example of the religion to the world. and the saddest part of them all is that some people view the religion as an anti-peace religion. and some even despise the religion which will lead to more misunderstandings and bloodshed.

this is the REAL truth. ISLAM reaches out to its devoters to tolerate and accept other religions. it is also a peace-loving religion.

PLEASE. let light be shed upon those who seek the truth.
PLEASE. release the hostages. they are innocent.
PLEASE. let's shake hands. and live in harmony.
PLEASE. dont seek differences. but seek similarities.

We are all the same.

Look away from your moniter, your mum may need your help right now.

retrace

2007-08-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

here i am. i am back. i am renewed. blogging's back for me- because it is my fortress of solitude; my once impregnable fortress. (there's a hidden meaning if you are pondering about this sentence)

here is why i'm back---

there comes a time when you a shoved. stepped on; pulverized. you feel tiny, you feel as if there's no more hope for you. the light at the end you've been chasing all along is dimming. you can barely see it now. the exit's closing and your freedom to life is at jeopardy. your whole life depends on the exit. you REALLY want to get out of the deep tunnel.

BUT

no one's there to help you, to guide you.

you sit all alone in the dark tunnel. not knowing what to do. you are lost. lost in your darkest part of your heart. you feel like giving up and succumbing to the darkness that surrounds you.
there's no noise in the tunnel. only your heart beat reverberate throughout the tunnel. and no one can hear your cries.

BUT

the memories still linger inside your heart. the images,voices and love from your friends and family flittered across your mind.

SUDDENLY

you feel as if there's a meaning, purpose to go on. because you remembered. remembered that you are NOT alone. there are people who care for you. people who love you. you stand up and shouted "I CAN DO IT"

the light is reignited. you see the exit.

BUT

the light is NOT coming from the exit. it is from YOU.

-aeonex.

i dedicate this encouragement to the 'O' level candidates this year.
especially to 5A, Siang Ning, Cang Ning and to myself.
because this is what i am feeling now.

p.s
currently my favourite song, you want to make a memory by Bon Jovi can be heard in my blog. the song is related to my short story of encouragement. enjoy.
feel free to vent out your feelings in my blog.
because
it is human nature.

your guardian angel

2007-06-11T18:52:00.001+08:00

Here's a 14 sec snippet of what you gonna hear from my group on cultural fiesta day. Practiced using a stand-alone mike connected to the PC. The quality's not that great. Have a listen and i would appreciate comments! =)

Live Earth

2007-06-11T13:24:00.000+08:00

07.07.07

Live Earth

Curious why Mediacorp channel 5 aired an advert about 07.07.07 Live Earth?

Here's the answer

Live Earth is the name for a series of concerts of pop and rock music planned to take place on Saturday July 7, 2007 to promote action to confront the global warming crisis. The concerts have the intent of bringing together 150 of the world's most popular music acts and drawing a worldwide audience of 2 billion people, making it one of the largest global events in history. The umbrella organization for the event is a new global movement under the name Save Our Selves (SOS). The plans for the concerts were announced at a media event in Los Angeles on February 15, 2007 by the former Vice President of the United States Al Gore and other activist celebrities. The inspiration for promoting the cause using the vehicle of benefit concerts comes from many similar events over the past 25 years including the 1985 Live Aid concerts and the 2005 Live 8 concerts. - wikipedia

LINKIN PARK HEADLINES LIVE EARTH TOKYO

The 24-Hour, 7-Continent Concert Series to Combat Global Warming Expected to Reach Over 2 Billion People on 7/7/07

LOS ANGELES (May 25, 2007) – Grammy Award-winning band Linkin Park will headline the Tokyo leg of the 24-hour, 7-continent Live Earth concert series on July 7, 2007, organizers announced today. The full artist lineup and ticketing information for Live Earth Tokyo, which is being staged at Makuhari Messe, will be announced on May 29.

Released last week, Linkin Park’s latest album, Minutes to Midnight is currently number one on the Billboard 200 with the biggest sales debut of 2007. Minutes to Midnight follows the band’s 2003 album Meteora, which also topped the Billboard charts and sold over 11 million copies worldwide. Linkin Park debuted in 2000 with Hybrid Theory, an album that sold 24 million copies worldwide and catapulted the band to international stardom.

Dedicated to inspiring action in the face of the climate crisis and providing aid to victims of natural disasters, in 2005 Linkin Park founded MUSIC FOR RELIEF. Initially established to aid the victims of the tsunami in South Asia, the organization now aims to mobilize the music community and music fans to help with various causes around the world, primarily disaster response and a proactive campaign to weaken and decelerate future natural disasters by raising awareness about the environmental consequences of climate change and our responsibility to reduce greenhouse gasses and develop alternate, renewable forms of energy.

“Climate crisis awareness could be one of the defining issues of our generation, and we’re proud to play this show in support of that effort,” said Mike Shinoda, Linkin Park band member.

Linkin Park joins other headliners such as Madonna, Bon Jovi, The Police, Sheryl Crow, Kelly Clarkson, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Kanye West, Melissa Etheridge, Beastie Boys, Smashing Pumpkins, John Mayer, Faith Hill, Black Eyed Peas, Foo Fighters, Fall Out Boy, Duran Duran, and many more, in playing Live Earth.

Live Earth was founded by Kevin Wall, the Emmy award-winning producer of Live 8, to bring together more than 100 of the world’s top music acts to engage an audience of over two billion people with solutions to the climate crisis. Live Earth seeks to inspire its global audience to make meaningful and lasting changes in their lives and spur action by corporations and governments to turn the tide on global warming.

“The goal of Live Earth is to reach the largest audience possible with tools to tackle the climate crisis,” said Wall. “Linkin Park’s participation is an incredible boost to these efforts, and we hope their millions of fans worldwide will tune in to Live Earth on 7/7/7 and join our movement.”
The Live Earth concert series will begin in Sydney, Australia and continue across all 7 continents with events in Tokyo, Japan; Shanghai, China; Johannesburg, South Africa; London, United Kingdom; Hamburg, Germany; Istanbul, Turkey; and Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, before concluding in New York, United States.

Live Earth marks the beginning of a multi-year campaign led by the Alliance for Climate Protection and other international non-governmental organizations to move individuals, corporations and governments to take action to solve global warming. Former Vice President of the United States Al Gore is the Chair of the Alliance for Climate Protection and a Partner of Live Earth.

Live Earth is being produced globally by Control Room, of which Kevin Wall is the CEO. Control Room has produced and distributed more than 60 concerts since its founding in 2005 featuring Beyoncé, Madonna, Green Day and the Rolling Stones, among others. - live earth website(http://liveearth.org/?p=45)

birthday poem

2007-06-11T13:14:00.000+08:00

on the eleventh day of june 91
.zéro sept zéro trois.
marked a great day in history.

a day that symbolises you.
a name forged upon you.
traits engraved in your DNA.

years have gone by.
today is your day.
your day to celebrate.

it's time to look back.
upon the memories gained.
and the wisdom earned.

this day was specially meant for you.
for the day you were born.
today is and always will be your birthday.

Happy 16th Birthday Ho Cang Ning.

P.S A poem dedicated to Cang Ning's Birthday. [11/06/07]

living proof

2007-06-10T17:24:00.000+08:00

EVOLUTION-
take back what you saw coz
i am a living entity.
a name was forged upon me 17 years back.
anuar's the name you'll call me,
because its like a design that will be written in your mind.
and now that the blue print's inside your head,
get yourself a clear understanding of me.
the architectural works of those symbion critters,
bases a natural selection of a new idea.
it's like the nanobots building up a new era.
brings the dawn of a dystopian society.
now listen to me for a while,
dont turn the dial,
this delicate message was focused on what i wrote.
it's as if the time spent writing till this line changes a single thing,
because time is all i've got,
bending it will be my pleasure.
i'll take you back to the glorious past,
the golden ages,
even the renaissance era
and the inevitable dark future.
go,
take back whats left in your head coz
every memory and confession borned out of your soul
will rot this earth.
andromeda's calling me back,
i'll zap back to my humble abode ;25 light years away
the trace of my dust trails will lead you to nowhere.
just so you know now
i cant show you my true self because
my will is beyond my own reach.
so that the system of duplication will fade away.
remember that.
or forget me.
[aeonex]

this is my second ever attempt at creating a rap. the last time i wrote a rap brought my class to glory in sec 2. yeah. remember those times. so carefree and free from all those bad media until i wrote this rap.

this rap's entitled evolution. now let me tell you what it means. my whole world changed when i got to know of the ailing earth. further research brought me to an alarming state of shock. that was ages ago. i knew that technological advances and economic growth brought severe blows to the natural world. there are pollution everywhere especially in those places persuing economic growth. now this rap is dedicated to the society we are in and the planet we call earth.

P.S to passerby: i will post up a poem tomorrow. =)

face recognition

2007-06-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

hey guys.

i've stumbled across this face recognition technology website when viewing a person's friendster profile =) (if you're reading this, i would like to say thank you)

ok. here's the website addy - www.myheritage.com

firstly, you need to register.
secondly, you have to upload your own personal photo
thirdly, the system will analyze and recognize your look-alikes.
lastly, tada! (you'd go its that my twin??) =P

well, i've uploaded some of my personal photos and the system has recognize my look-alikes.
judge it yourselves. haha

hmm. looks like my friends , family and cousins were right after all.
i look like mike shinoda(linkin park) and shah rukh khan(bollywood actor)